i've always fallen fast with too much trust in the promise that "no one's ever been here, so you can quell those wet fears."
i want purity, i must have it here right now.
but don't you get me started now.

so my pen pal was a bust.

All I can do is tell you about what he's done and warn you that he doesn't change. When he starts burning you with cigarettes there's only so much sympathy I can offer.

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shady people fucking suck.
even if they are only being alittle bit shady.
especially if they are one of your friends.
one that used to be your best of friends.
and it seems like they always dont want you around.
fuckdf nggfdgj!

half the time he makes me happy.
the other half he makes me sad.
i dont even know if its worth it anymore
maybe i should just forget about him.

im so sick of myself bending all different ways for his ass. shit. i stay up online until he goes to sleep just sitting there like his little puppet hoping that this night is the one where he shows a little sympathy in his voice. of course i get robbed. night after night i end up going to sleep feeling like shit after those 5 minute pauses after ( Read more... )

i become distant with friends. ?. sometimes, but it seems lately that everything is going downhill from here, distance is made between "so-called" best friends, then they find someone new and better. and im left with no one, once again. it feels like i have no one. why does it always happen? it tears me apart. ah, sometimes its to much to handle ( Read more... )

my mom has yelled at me everyday this week so far.
and everyday of last week.

sometimes im in desperate need of affection.