Life so far.
Misty yelled at me for not posting on here anymore. So here we go. :> HOPE YOU'RE HAAAPPPEH >O This is gunna be loooooooooong.
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I've been cruising through life like a gangsta, yo. LOL That was terrible. Basically nothings been really that bad. Decent you could call it, but more on the bleh... side then the okay side, if you know what I mean. Let me try to just kinda just say what's happened since my last journal entry, mk?
So Daniel, my ghey boyfriend, I found out he was moving a while back. I found out on Valentines Day. And he was a leaving in a week. >____< That REALLY sucked. Sucked hard. :< I helped him move the last day he was here and it really wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. I got to spend 6 hours with him! How could I complain?! But I swear... that was longest fucking car ride back home I've ever experienced. At like 11 o'clock his grandmother drove me home. The entire way home I clutched onto his hand as hard as I could and we glanced at each other. I could tell his was about to cry, he's a really emotional guy. But that last moment where I saw him was bliss for some reason. I never wanted to let go, and somehow, I didn't. I still haven't. :]
So he moved to Austin and we were dating things were going pretty good. We actually broke up for like a week and a half but got back together. Press the forward button onto A-kon. SO MUCH DRAMA. I love my cons. SO MUCH. But omg last A-kon was the worst one.
1st this of drama-ness. Daniel would not give like five minutes of me and him time at the con. Oh yeah, he went btw. >3> But It was so annoying. It was his first con and he hadn't seen his friends in over 3 months but I hadn't seen him in 2 months, we broke up and got back together and the over all shock that he was actually THERE (because it was kinda an on off thing if he was actually going or not ) made me just want to see him. And to add to that I was PMS. Bad. :/
2nd thing was the fact that I asked from my friend Bre (who I was staying with) if I could go to the rave with my boyfriend because I wanted to go dance with him. Friday night she said no because of he step dad then Saturday she said yes. Well I went and the Masquerade went over about 40 minutes so of course the Rave had to start late. And I remember telling her step dad that I was going to the rave and he said it was fine. Well after being in the rave for like 15 minutes I get a text saying "You need to come back, Alex (her step dad) is getting mad." I was sooooooo pissseeed. >_<
3rd thing. Friday I wanted to go get dressed in normal attire so I could do some pictures of Bre and others in their cosplays right? Well I don't like being at A-kon alone, because it's fecking huuuuuuuuge. No joke, 25k+ people there. Yuh. I know my way around but it's still nerve racking. So Bre gives me the key and says, "Remember buddy system, take daniel with you and come right back, kay?" and so me and Danny went to the room and tried the key. Didn't work for some reason. Then Alex comes by and is all wtfing on us because I'm trying to get in. Then other friends came over who needed to get in to get crap out of the room. Alex came back with a key that worked and pulled me aside and was yelling at me in a hushed voice for bringing my boyfriend. I was scared. D: I mean, Bre even TOLD me to bring him up here! She understands that this con can get creepy when you're alone and it truely is. There so many people.... UGH. Pissed me off.
That's mostly it besides me just stressing out and crap. :/ Ugh. it pissed me off because even the RAVE sucked. It was full of stoners that didn't even go to the con in the first place... makes me miss yulecon. :< That was so much fun at the rave.
Well after A-kon Danny stayed for about 4 days afterward which was AWESOME... to an extent. :/ Monday and Tuesday after the con it felt like he kinda... ignored me. I was at my friends house with him and I just started crying because of it. Everyone was like, 'uh oh crap'. Then Wednesday he was supposed to come over to my house, but he was staying at Hunters and kept throwing up so I went over there to make him feel better. It was so nice because he was being more cuddly then normal. I got a text that day from my dear friend Iqbal, who recently got out of a long distance relationship that was a lot like mine, and it was something along the lines of, "Make sure you cherish every moment with Daniel. Take in all the sights and sound, don't forget them." I thought it was so sweet of him to say! I showed it to Danny and he kinda had this sad expression on his face. Like he didn't care or maybe that he was mad? I don't know... But the rest of that day was nice. Besides the fact that he refused to go eat dinner at my house even though he promised he would. :< Wed night he and hunter spent the night at Travis' and so that morning at like 11 I went over to Travis' house and went into the guest room where he was sleeping and cuddled with him until he woke up. He looked so peaceful... It was wonderful. Then some stuff happened between us and i had to leave to go to lunch with my sister. He was leaving that day and said he'd come by before he had to leave. After lunch I got home and Iqbal texted me again and i realized the true point of the text from Wednesday. He told me that at the beginning of the week Daniel said he was planning on breaking up with me. Iqbal and Hunter didn't want to tell me and let Danny do the talking but after what happened that morning, they both feel like Daniel was using me and was just going to dump me after he left. I started freaking out. That didn't sound like Daniel at all. Now danny's hardcore catholic. Srsly. He always talked about regretting doing lots of the stuff we did because it didn't feel right with his religion and beliefs. He cried about it a few times too. Now I don't think some guy would go that far just for that. I mean, come on. He MUST have not had his head screwed on tight enough!
That night he came in at like 9 or so at night and my parents let him in and he just walked into my room. Almost gave me a heart attack to see him and his bleach blond hair! I forgot he was coming X3 But he sounded so happy to see me. And sounded so sweet. And his lips were so soft. I was 95%sure he wasn't going to break it off with me. Basically days later we talked about it all. He said he felt like I was trying to steal him away from his friends (wtf?!) but realized on Wed how much he missed me. And realized more on Thurs. Hunter was SO mad at him for this whole ordeal and kept telling me to break it off with him, that I should be furious at him. How could I be mad at someone for something they didn't do...? Now Hunter and Daniel hate eachother for stupid ass reasons and I hate it when my friends fight... oh well. At east me and Danny are still together, right? And I get to see him again in two weeks! :D
On a whole other note, I'm going to Florida with Bre in July! We're going to Metrocon and it's going to be awwwwwwweeeesome. :3 I'm just kinda stressed a little by my cosplays. We're doing a rave Org 13 group with some Florida natives and I'm doing Laxene! I'm kinda excited because I never realized how much I love her character. I love insane bitches! But I don't have much money to get this cosplay all in order. I still need to buy bright yellow leggings, her wig and fur for the furry leg warmers x3. Bre designed our outfits and they look awesome. She's a great Demyx cosplayer btw. Amazing. Also a good Grell!
So yeah that all the main points that happened recently.
tl;dr - bf moved, a-kon drama, bf drama, going to florida in July
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I've been cruising through life like a gangsta, yo. LOL That was terrible. Basically nothings been really that bad. Decent you could call it, but more on the bleh... side then the okay side, if you know what I mean. Let me try to just kinda just say what's happened since my last journal entry, mk?
So Daniel, my ghey boyfriend, I found out he was moving a while back. I found out on Valentines Day. And he was a leaving in a week. >____< That REALLY sucked. Sucked hard. :< I helped him move the last day he was here and it really wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. I got to spend 6 hours with him! How could I complain?! But I swear... that was longest fucking car ride back home I've ever experienced. At like 11 o'clock his grandmother drove me home. The entire way home I clutched onto his hand as hard as I could and we glanced at each other. I could tell his was about to cry, he's a really emotional guy. But that last moment where I saw him was bliss for some reason. I never wanted to let go, and somehow, I didn't. I still haven't. :]
So he moved to Austin and we were dating things were going pretty good. We actually broke up for like a week and a half but got back together. Press the forward button onto A-kon. SO MUCH DRAMA. I love my cons. SO MUCH. But omg last A-kon was the worst one.
1st this of drama-ness. Daniel would not give like five minutes of me and him time at the con. Oh yeah, he went btw. >3> But It was so annoying. It was his first con and he hadn't seen his friends in over 3 months but I hadn't seen him in 2 months, we broke up and got back together and the over all shock that he was actually THERE (because it was kinda an on off thing if he was actually going or not ) made me just want to see him. And to add to that I was PMS. Bad. :/
2nd thing was the fact that I asked from my friend Bre (who I was staying with) if I could go to the rave with my boyfriend because I wanted to go dance with him. Friday night she said no because of he step dad then Saturday she said yes. Well I went and the Masquerade went over about 40 minutes so of course the Rave had to start late. And I remember telling her step dad that I was going to the rave and he said it was fine. Well after being in the rave for like 15 minutes I get a text saying "You need to come back, Alex (her step dad) is getting mad." I was sooooooo pissseeed. >_<
3rd thing. Friday I wanted to go get dressed in normal attire so I could do some pictures of Bre and others in their cosplays right? Well I don't like being at A-kon alone, because it's fecking huuuuuuuuge. No joke, 25k+ people there. Yuh. I know my way around but it's still nerve racking. So Bre gives me the key and says, "Remember buddy system, take daniel with you and come right back, kay?" and so me and Danny went to the room and tried the key. Didn't work for some reason. Then Alex comes by and is all wtfing on us because I'm trying to get in. Then other friends came over who needed to get in to get crap out of the room. Alex came back with a key that worked and pulled me aside and was yelling at me in a hushed voice for bringing my boyfriend. I was scared. D: I mean, Bre even TOLD me to bring him up here! She understands that this con can get creepy when you're alone and it truely is. There so many people.... UGH. Pissed me off.
That's mostly it besides me just stressing out and crap. :/ Ugh. it pissed me off because even the RAVE sucked. It was full of stoners that didn't even go to the con in the first place... makes me miss yulecon. :< That was so much fun at the rave.
Well after A-kon Danny stayed for about 4 days afterward which was AWESOME... to an extent. :/ Monday and Tuesday after the con it felt like he kinda... ignored me. I was at my friends house with him and I just started crying because of it. Everyone was like, 'uh oh crap'. Then Wednesday he was supposed to come over to my house, but he was staying at Hunters and kept throwing up so I went over there to make him feel better. It was so nice because he was being more cuddly then normal. I got a text that day from my dear friend Iqbal, who recently got out of a long distance relationship that was a lot like mine, and it was something along the lines of, "Make sure you cherish every moment with Daniel. Take in all the sights and sound, don't forget them." I thought it was so sweet of him to say! I showed it to Danny and he kinda had this sad expression on his face. Like he didn't care or maybe that he was mad? I don't know... But the rest of that day was nice. Besides the fact that he refused to go eat dinner at my house even though he promised he would. :< Wed night he and hunter spent the night at Travis' and so that morning at like 11 I went over to Travis' house and went into the guest room where he was sleeping and cuddled with him until he woke up. He looked so peaceful... It was wonderful. Then some stuff happened between us and i had to leave to go to lunch with my sister. He was leaving that day and said he'd come by before he had to leave. After lunch I got home and Iqbal texted me again and i realized the true point of the text from Wednesday. He told me that at the beginning of the week Daniel said he was planning on breaking up with me. Iqbal and Hunter didn't want to tell me and let Danny do the talking but after what happened that morning, they both feel like Daniel was using me and was just going to dump me after he left. I started freaking out. That didn't sound like Daniel at all. Now danny's hardcore catholic. Srsly. He always talked about regretting doing lots of the stuff we did because it didn't feel right with his religion and beliefs. He cried about it a few times too. Now I don't think some guy would go that far just for that. I mean, come on. He MUST have not had his head screwed on tight enough!
That night he came in at like 9 or so at night and my parents let him in and he just walked into my room. Almost gave me a heart attack to see him and his bleach blond hair! I forgot he was coming X3 But he sounded so happy to see me. And sounded so sweet. And his lips were so soft. I was 95%sure he wasn't going to break it off with me. Basically days later we talked about it all. He said he felt like I was trying to steal him away from his friends (wtf?!) but realized on Wed how much he missed me. And realized more on Thurs. Hunter was SO mad at him for this whole ordeal and kept telling me to break it off with him, that I should be furious at him. How could I be mad at someone for something they didn't do...? Now Hunter and Daniel hate eachother for stupid ass reasons and I hate it when my friends fight... oh well. At east me and Danny are still together, right? And I get to see him again in two weeks! :D
On a whole other note, I'm going to Florida with Bre in July! We're going to Metrocon and it's going to be awwwwwwweeeesome. :3 I'm just kinda stressed a little by my cosplays. We're doing a rave Org 13 group with some Florida natives and I'm doing Laxene! I'm kinda excited because I never realized how much I love her character. I love insane bitches! But I don't have much money to get this cosplay all in order. I still need to buy bright yellow leggings, her wig and fur for the furry leg warmers x3. Bre designed our outfits and they look awesome. She's a great Demyx cosplayer btw. Amazing. Also a good Grell!
So yeah that all the main points that happened recently.
tl;dr - bf moved, a-kon drama, bf drama, going to florida in July