well. tomorrow i get to stand up for something i believe in. or rather... dont believe in. i have to go to the o.b. and fight with them about taking a test that makes me sick and cant be good for the baby. i mean, sure it would be a good thing to know... but they need to realize that i physically can not do it. ah well ( Read more... )

well i hope every one had a great tanksgiving. hotmail is fucking up royally so i cant really check my mail or send mail. i am so tired of the holidays already. so stressful and just.... well you all know what i mean....

you know i truly do not get the point of livejournal. if you dont want someone to see what you wrote, then why write it? i mean.... DUH!!! "live" journal. if you have something you dont want other people to comment on... dont frickin post it. get a brain

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i am wondering why things never quite work out the way you want them to. i mean, i didnt want to be all emotional through my pregnancy,, but now i see that that is highly impossible. i also wanted my family to stop the bullshit and just get along. but that didnt happen and will probably never happen ( Read more... )

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well nothing new has really happened since my last post. on nov 18 i have to get a shot. that really sux. but it will mean i have a healthy baby... instead of a dead baby.

well another day done and gone. another day is coming. soon it will be time to go to sleep and get physically ready for the next day to come. mentally is another story... the mental part comes tomorrow morning... laying in bed, contemplating the events of the day. slowly letting your body wake up. i hate hearing alarm clock and then having toget ( Read more... )

well its another morning in the depressing town of taft. not much new in the aspect of my life. this town is full of drama queens and idiots. i cant wait to get out of here. alan, allen, and i were all talking last night and we decided to move to washington. dont know when yet.... probably after the baby is born. i realized last night that this ( Read more... )

well, we had the ultra sound done yesterday. they said it looks like a girl.. so... YAY.. the lady who did the ultrasounbd was a real bitch though. she wouldnt let me see the baby. alan got to see only because i called him over and that made the doc lady mad. but oh well.... she isnt the one carrying the baby.. i am... we got a couple of really ( Read more... )