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[hjayney]

 I hate to come bitching on here and I always feel so silly when I read it back to myself but I feel like I have no one that I can say this to:

FUUUUUCKKKKKKK.

I just had one of those weird blank head bulimia moments in which I decided to rally together a group of people to go to pizza hut (??), despite not being hungry and being convinced that I

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[winter_tulip]

Hi. I know I'm 2 hours late with the comment, but maybe you're still sitting with it.

You can't gain significant amounts of weight from one binge.

Look at this as a positive - by not purging, you're breaking the cycle. You can eat and not purge and the world doesn't end. You feel powerless, but being able to sit with the binge and not purge it is you exercising control over the ED.

Hope you're ok.

[hjayney]

2 hours late is okay =) I appreciate it anyway.
And youre so right, in general. I'm feeling a little better now, at least more calmed down though not a whole lot less disgusted with myself. But I am trying to look at it as an 'opportunity' to prove that I can survive a binge and not wake up weighing 200 pounds more.

Deeeepbreath.

Thank you so much for your support, it means more than you can know, seriously.