im crying... bad

wow.... snap, reality.  I hurt sooo bad.  :(.  But i deserve it more than anything for living his lie and bitching about it.

i absolutly love my friends

ellen: for holding me in her arms and being there like the best thing that i could ever feel. You are great. And walking me to 7th hour so i didnt die half way there.

tori: i ( Read more... )

:) :) i just want to smile alot ( Read more... )

Her feelings she hides.
Her dreams she can't find.
She's losing her mind.
She's fallen behind.
She can't find her place.
She's losing her faith.
She's fallen from grace.
She's all over the place.
Yeah,oh

She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

I cant figure it out .... i know for sure i want out of here i want to go jump high pole vault for a school or just go to school and be done with highschool. I want to grow up and begin college and becoming an O.T. maybe. But all at the same time im like ohhhh shit im to old... freaking 18 is a huge number. Pot, Smoking, Alcohol, Boys... 18... ( Read more... )

Honestly that was a great night. I was spoiled. Just because things wont carry on that way. They were awesome :) It was a great concert. Im glad i was surrounded by tons of their music for a year by my two best friends hah. It was freaking hott though and yea. HOtt.... Dave bought me a shirt :) i heart him. yeyey its a pretty shirt! Im ( Read more... )

yonder :( god i fucking love him ( Read more... )

well, i went to cedar pt. Dave didnt come :( TO SICK so me rj, ellen, matt,n jeff wentit was fun...but i was the 5th wheel and i missed dave alot. we got back at 3:45 a.m. WOW than i woke up and visited Dave b4 he went to Campingness and the doctors. He was alot better and ready to be normal. So, yea than after that i went to themovies w/ellen ( Read more... )

Well, havent updated in like a year ( Read more... )

Name 20 friends, in no order ( Read more... )

hah im in french. Amy is on my left and MISS SAGR is on mah right. Grant and Amber on the far right hah. yea that was gay. like grant. its ok im lieing grant ur cool. Well Saturday I went to the gym than i cleaned all day. Than i babysat annnddd yep tori didnt come visit me. Than sunday i slept and i washed my car and bryan came and visited ( Read more... )