the time at the beach was not enough time. i do not feel well-rested or ready to start a new school year... and yet here i am ( Read more... )

so this time last week i was stressed, nervous, anxious... but that was happiness compared to how i feel about this week. i cannot begin to explain how unprepared i feel for my comps tomorrow. i have cracked one of the many books ONCE this week and it was only for a few minutes until i realized i wasn't even reading what my eyes were drifting ( Read more... )

so, as little as i have written, i am going to make this fast. it's thursday. THE thursday before my comps on saturday. am i ready? not even close. tomorrow i had planned on waking up, taking it kind of easy to relax and not really focus on studying, just reviewing some notes i've made to myself on the questions... but i'm not done with making ( Read more... )

so i am SUPPOSED to be studying. every day. i am SUPPOSED to be going to the gym. every day. i am NOT SUPPOSED to be spending money. every day. and I am trying. i really really am! but somehow i am totally not succeeding ( Read more... )

the circle of life is so freakin messed up, you know? i have been reading my "friends" page off and on for awhile now, but i just decided to look at my journal and i canNOT believe how long ago it was since i posted and what my last post was about. i dropped off a "memories" care package to his parents house a week ago - 5/14 was his birthday and ( Read more... )

i'm here. i haven't been here, but i am here. i've been disconnecting myself only to be reminded this past monday how important it really is for me to be connected ( Read more... )

if you can read this,

i love you.

school is going to kick my @$$ this semester. i must submit to this fact and take my @$$whoopin' like a the good girl i am. why can i not get this shite together ( Read more... )

i think we need to talk. REALLY talk. because i think we are losing touch, losing contact, losing the bind that helps keep me together ( Read more... )

i call and i call and i call... it's either busy on the first line, busy on the connecting line, or when i finally do get through those two i am put on hold for - NO LIE - 18 minutes and 41 secs before i finally hang up and try again ( Read more... )