HIT THE SWITCH
so for some reason, whenever there is a lack of constant drama in my life, i stir some up.
after a year and however many months.
i broke up with my gf.
it is what it is.
i just wasnt into it anymore.
and i wasnt about to sign a lease and move into an apt with her when im just not feeling it.
so now everybody thinks im a big asshole.
but whatever.
its not like i dont care.
i just dont care in a "gf" way.
MAYBE I AM AN ASSHOLE?
but im just really fucking sick of everybody asking me about it.
is it any of your business???
were you there, every second of our relationship??
and what is this "picking sides"??
i really could not care less whose "side" youre on.
i know i was right.
its not like i WANTED the relationship to end.
it just did.
it was shitty in the end.
for months.
i got sick of waiting for change.
it either works or it doesnt.
and it wasnt.
since the break up, shes tried to kill herself.
twice.
like, that is not what i wanted.
first off, im not that great.
second, its not really the end of the world.
and i didnt want her to hurt, i just didnt want myself to hurt anymore.
her counselor called me yesterday.
said that she and callea's social worker thought it would be best if i came in for a couples session???
WHAT FUCKING COUPLE???
and i am not 40 years old coming out of a 25 year relationship.
im not going to some couple shit.
im not a couple.
its just me.
ugh.
thank god i remembered my lj password.
cause i just really needed to vent about that.