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[hodibabe]

So im updating..not sure why but then again why not? i saw fever pitch over the weekend...its not that bad, considering i rather it be about the yankees, but oh well, it was pretty good, um hung out with nicole on friday, tons of fun, i dont understand why we're dead by like 8 but oh well...this weekend though, i'll try my best to make you one

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[lifegetsbetter]

Glad to hear that everything is going well,hope softball goes well tomarrow,.,.,., in other words...goodluck.. i dont know what is towards me in this entry, but i wont second guess the situation,i will look at the entry and realize the most noticable sentace, which is how i acted, im sorry that i acted the way i did!..as you, i also did i alot of talking to others and i did alot of thinking. The posotion i am in sucks..i notice more and more how shitty all this is. I am weak when it comes to all this, i cant stand walking by you i can walk by you and have the fakest smile on my face, i cant stand not talking to you i can talk to others around you, but all that is going on in my head is you!i say this all the time but what is there to do. as said in ur entry, you know who you can trust and all that, also that all you need is a few friends. so "losing" me doesnt make a differance in ur life i dont now if your friends "pointed" anything out maybe they did, i dont know... it aint my place!. well thats what i get from the entry.....there

[hodibabe]

First, I’m sorry you have to talk to others instead of talking to me, for the first time in a while I thought things were going ok, but then again I guess I was wrong. Of course I blame myself for this as well, but I wasn’t the one that stopped talking, I don’t know what you want me to do when you walk by me like I don’t exist, especially when everyone around me gets a smile except me. I don’t expect you to apologize for anything; I don’t want you too, because I don’t want you to think that everything is your fault, and that I’m waiting for you to apologize. That’s not what I want. The trust issue had absolutely nothing to do with you, as well as the thing about my friends pointing things out….you know I trusted you and there’s not point in questioning that. If it didn’t make a difference to lose you, then why would I care and try to figure out what exactly happened. What happened was not my decision, I didn’t chose not to go, I can only argue so much and push so much. What they say is what I have to go by, its not easy telling you