a day so infectious. strange dreams about his endless beauty and i don't know why. woke to a brilliant sun and let myself melt into it (my flowing golden skin). retreated to a cool bath, peony bubbles, and the beautiful dream-like state of confused time. and later, driving along, glowing white light mocking me (in three weeks, i'll replace your ( Read more... )

there's a boy in my scuba class. the only one even close in age to me. and i looked at him while the class was standing in the shallow end, his mask clutched between his fingers, skin smooth and pale (eerily so in an opaque sense) and his soft blue green eyes were glowing with a matte finish. it was perfect ( Read more... )

driving home from my history a.p. study session (test is tomorrow), listening to one of my "songs to feel infinite to". and when the music swelled and the vocals let loose in a calming, exposed, free-spirited sort of way, i cried. because it felt like the right thing to do. and my body shook a little as the lights started to glow brighter through ( Read more... )

i want to imagine. and believe ( Read more... )

it seems unnatural to listen to anything besides remember maine on my iPod. and i'm so nostalgic. humans make the best pillows (a heart beat makes the best metronome). wedged comfortably between you and the wall, floor, bench, tan on white on white on white. miles of endless blue. and this is the best place for memories. "who is this?". "remember ( Read more... )

i just got back from hawaii, late monday night. and everything since then has been a whirlwind of memories and make-up work and pretending i'm anywhere (everywhere) but here. and the whole trip seems distant and dream-like and cloudy and that just kills me ( Read more... )

i feel like running to the middle of an expansive grass area, as the sun is setting, but still quite bright, and laughing and squinting my eyes, seeing the sun trying to filter through my eyelashes before kissing someone beautiful lightly on the lips.

(i'm such a romantic ( Read more... )

i was just watching some late-night tv when an ad came on, advertising free bibles for easter, a la the church of jesus christ of latter-day saints. i recall seeing many such ads as a child, unaware they were promoting a religion i would eventually become ridiculously acquainted with for someone who is not affiliated with mormonism in the least. ( Read more... )

no ljcut for you! kidnapped ( Read more... )