Well here it is over two years after the last journal entry. I wonder how much i have changed from then. I really like to think I am not the same on several different levels. I know I don't do alot of the shit I didi when I was younger, now I do other things that are bad, but no one knows because I am an excellent concealer. I mean whose going to ( Read more... )

Planless and mindless
Scraps from anywhere
Bunch of used parts
From garbage pails everywhere
Frankenstein became a monster
Just like you
Your scars only show
When someone talks to you

today
+school+
+during english ashley and i started yell at eachother, it was interesting,b/c she is foolish and she doesn't know what self pity is and she wears vagina ( Read more... )

Mirror mirror hanging on the wall
You don't have to tell me who's the biggest fool of all
Mirror mirror I wish you could lie to me

+school is for fools+ (hahaha)

so boring...


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i'll let myself fall into a lie
i'll let my walls come down
i wont let myself smile and feel alive
i won't let my walls come down
no matter how i try i don't know why
you push so far away
you wrapped your hands tight around my heart
and squeezed it full of pain

today

-woke up

-went back to bed

-woke up

-got ready

-bus

-french=test..boo...

-math= sure ( Read more... )

A kid that you know goes to school
He's really kinda shy and not that cool
He knows what it's like to look in from the outside
Inside, he just wants someone to confide
But everyone's busy and no one's got the time
He takes his dad's gun and says
"This is how I'll shine"
Boom, boom, boom
And the kids fall down
On the ground
Dumbfound

Friday

Went to ( Read more... )

you hit me
it all turns to sunshine
dirty sunshine
you walked in
it all turns to sunshine
dirty sunshine
i slam the door
and shut the blinds
dirty sunshine

dOOb7869: no im not, im the lowest piece of trash there is, everything i talk to i hurt, ne thing i touch i break, everything always ends up leaving me, i want to leave myself...really, i dont ( Read more... )

through the night i see the light
shining from the neighbor's windows
i dream of life where i'm safe
in a home where i am not alone
some day i will lay me down
on the grass where everything is greener
it always seems so good on the other side

t-o-d-a-y

+woke up

-listened to radio

+went back to bed

-woke up

+got dressed

-put on make up

+went to the bus
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Each night I ask the stars
The stars up above
Why must I be a teenager in love
One day I feel so happy
Next day I feel so sad
I guess I'll learn to take
The good with the bad

-Today-

+woke up+showered+bus*french=eh?*algebra+tautkus+work=shit*lunch=fun*health=boring*english=forgot*

HOME

played some awesome game

ran 3 miles

died

I can't hold back ( Read more... )

See everybody else has gotten involved
That's not the way this should've evolved
I should have just told you how I felt
But when I'm around you my words just melt

Ok then…french was pretty interesting… math was pretty not interesting…lunch was sorta fun, health was tiring and English was odd…

Yes there is a dance on Friday and I will most likely be ( Read more... )

Don't turn around, don't look ahead
I won't listen to all the lies I'm fed.
Don't have to listen to you
So don't you fucking tell me what to do.

-Friday night-

Had Sarah over to hangout then we got picked up and we went and saw “the secret window” my fave part was when Johnny depp hits the guy who is sleeping with his wife in the face with the ( Read more... )