are you happy now..?

[holdyourtears]

i'm so sick of people lying to me...lying..omitting the truth..not being straightforward...not standing up for the truth. it's just fucking lame. now, i know that i am not innocent when it comes to lying etc etc. but i am working on it. UGH, it's so frustrating not being able to trust that what my "friends" are saying is true. what are they trying

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[kookbyshorts]

Dont be silly-I've always been a MIA. Its nothing to do with anyone except my own reclusive self. As far as bridges burned-well thats not really to do with me, I take it, but I believe it has to do w/her conflict of interest, its incredibly hard to befriend two enemies at the same time, or exfriends, or whatever you call it-because loyalty is her number one trip, and she cant have anything ruin it. I understand that. We both miss you, you know. But You have to understand that the person who misses you the most out of all of us is the one you wont even talk to or think about anymore. Thats hard to swallow. And Im not throwing anyone a pity party-I know that you got incredibly hurt in the whole stupid blood bath too, and now you're over it and all and "want life to go on". Understandable. But we all have our loyalties. Okay, now Im just talking too much. I've got to go. The beach calls. Goodbye.

[holdyourtears]

I understand we all have our loyalties, but I also think there is a difference between loyalty and the loyalty being expressed in our "situation." I feel as though this loyalty has become blinding, causing me to be misrepresented/misunderstood...whatever. I am not attempting to redirect any blame. I just know that I am the only one that can honestly and accurately represent myself (sentiments, opinions and all). So, when anyone's ready to listen, I'll be here to talk...about anything.
<3robin