Dark side
this post is all about facing the Dark side. It IS powerful, it IS vindicating, even.
http://youtu.be/zwBL4gk_3D4
I don't know how to embed from this iPad. Not having a desktop is a real pain.
So, I went down this Tori Amos rabbit hole, like you do. This is a great interview segment from the Roseanne Show. Roseanne deserves all the love. Finally realized what "rabbits" means: having nothing to do with your hands, not in front of a piano, feeling awkward.
Tori talks about wanting to have access to Darkness through the wrong choice in boys. A few hours later I finally finished "A Wizard of Earthsea," and what is the true name of the Shadow that threatens to destroy his being?
Bum-ba-bummmm, HIS OWN NAME. And I actually was duped, because I thought it would have to be something else. But goddamn I love that book.
It seems like a common analogy, but such an important one. When I faced my dark side a few years ago, I played "Beat the Devil's Tattoo" on loop. I know I went a little too deep that time, and did some harm. But it felt so damn good.
This is what women want. It's what Nice Guys want. Their dark side has to be so cleaned up, so subversive, supposed to mirror light into a man's own darkness, his own journey. No wonder shit is so fucked up.
It's funny how I was reading my backlogs, to a time when I thought I was a sidekick in someone else's story, or the misunderstood villain's toady, feeling deeply unhappy and pathetic about it. It reads today like HE was my goofy sidekick. My story is here.
But the moment I dedicate energy to another person, negatively, I become a villain myself, and the story is no longer mine. The real enemy to concern myself with is the one seeking to harm me personally. All stories about "the devil" are weirdly personal until you remember the main character is actually alone in the room. SO Many Examples...
I still got that convoluted blog style!
http://youtu.be/zwBL4gk_3D4
I don't know how to embed from this iPad. Not having a desktop is a real pain.
So, I went down this Tori Amos rabbit hole, like you do. This is a great interview segment from the Roseanne Show. Roseanne deserves all the love. Finally realized what "rabbits" means: having nothing to do with your hands, not in front of a piano, feeling awkward.
Tori talks about wanting to have access to Darkness through the wrong choice in boys. A few hours later I finally finished "A Wizard of Earthsea," and what is the true name of the Shadow that threatens to destroy his being?
Bum-ba-bummmm, HIS OWN NAME. And I actually was duped, because I thought it would have to be something else. But goddamn I love that book.
It seems like a common analogy, but such an important one. When I faced my dark side a few years ago, I played "Beat the Devil's Tattoo" on loop. I know I went a little too deep that time, and did some harm. But it felt so damn good.
This is what women want. It's what Nice Guys want. Their dark side has to be so cleaned up, so subversive, supposed to mirror light into a man's own darkness, his own journey. No wonder shit is so fucked up.
It's funny how I was reading my backlogs, to a time when I thought I was a sidekick in someone else's story, or the misunderstood villain's toady, feeling deeply unhappy and pathetic about it. It reads today like HE was my goofy sidekick. My story is here.
But the moment I dedicate energy to another person, negatively, I become a villain myself, and the story is no longer mine. The real enemy to concern myself with is the one seeking to harm me personally. All stories about "the devil" are weirdly personal until you remember the main character is actually alone in the room. SO Many Examples...
I still got that convoluted blog style!