miserable

[hollys126]

It's 1:30AM, all I want to do is sleep away the rest of this miserale day and I find myself just starring aimlessly at my ceiling. My life is in a rut. I've felt this way before, this need to just get away. Don't get me wrong, I have it good at home, really good, but I'm not happy. My life isn't where I imagined it, I'm only 20 but I have huge

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[lilmissscorpio]

Ingrid and I were talking the other day and we both feel the same way. We both feel like we don't belong at home. We've also noticed that we're turning back into our old selves which is something we've both worked hard at to change. I haven't been getting along with Mark and Tampa was definately a better place for me. But unlike you, I'm putting myself in a lot of debt to live on my own, but to me it's worth it. You know I love my mom to death, but I just can't live with her anymore, but it is because we're so much alike. Maybe the trip coming up will give you a break that you need, and give you a dose of FL Sunshine that'll make you smile again. I heart you and miss you. Let me know what day(s) you want to chill with me ok? Bye Babe

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[pam0284]

Hey Holly! I didn't know if you even had a livejournal but I noticed you listed me as one of your Friends so thats how I got here. Anyhoo, I feel the same way sometimes. Im a totally different person around my mom and I have a hard time telling her. I was sick recently (wisdom teeth drama...I got really sick from the codine) and when I get physically sick I get very depressed and my anxiety gets really bad. I'm actually going to the doctors thursday to get on some regular antidepressants, but thats besides the point. Anyways, my mom annoys me SO bad sometimes, I just don't understand her and she's extremely moody and snappy and Im kind of resentful about that too I suppose, but anyways, I have a very hard time expressing my feelings with her. I mean I will complain to her when Im depressed or if I don't feel good, but I mean I have a hard time telling her my feelings about HER. Like telling her I love her and how much I appreciate her and stuff. So I was really sick a couple weeks ago and having a little freak out and I like totally