so today was hmmm cant really describe something that meant nothing. lets see 1st did nothing 2nd and 3rd block with heaton i had to taste a ptc paper or whatever it tasted like hairspray. 4th was nothing but questions about julius caesar i swear im the only one who knows whats going on. lunch boring 5th my balls hurt they still do thanx a lot lay ( Read more... )

so im waiting around to go to school. i wont be online fr a while sorry brooke ill try but your ass better call me this weekend or that whole naked honey bear chuck e cheese thing will come true. last night hmmm oh yeah i got into a snowball fight with my dad and he threw one at me and went offbalance and fell into the street. that was funny stuff ( Read more... )

the eagles lost. im still alone. 4 people stopped talking online. im still alone. im reconidering therapy a lot. im still alone. the depression has peaked again. i hate parents. im all alone.

well this has been one long depressing weekend. every day is a new reason to live and die. im so sick of everyone bringing up aislinn i dont care im over her im not a part of her life anymore. any feelings left were crushed after i found out about hte whole fucking whirlow in a week thing but i wont say anything bad about her cause thats not me. ( Read more... )

i hated seeing so many people happy with thier bfs/gfs last night. i hate how everything she says to me is bullshit and i believe it and i dont understand why that news hurt so bad it completely changed the way i feel towards her and now i could care less if she ever talked to me again. and the one that could work out and i want to be with i cant ( Read more... )

ok its quarter till 2 and its and off day so according to my new sleep schedule i get none tonight eventhough last night shouldnt have counted this damn hangover kept me up. so tonight ive figured out a lot of shit.1)i think i think hell love someone but they are too far away. she is so different from everyone around here. shes only 15 but wants to ( Read more... )

ive got a fucking hangover but it was worth it. fun times last night. i think we all hit it too hard but when youve got problems thats what happens. i feel strangely close to someone now because of certain cough cough masterbation in same room cough circumstances. southern comfort is my new best friend. irvy is an aggresive drunk who rolls in his ( Read more... )

so today was well i dont know how to describe life anymore. i laughed a lot today good real laughs it felt good to do that. she is talking to me again that made me happy. it felt like her ignoring me was like acting like the last 4 months meant nothing. but ill get ove r it. good luck with whirlow. well i was having a good day then i started to ( Read more... )

so i actually had a couple of people act concerned and ask me what was wrong and im sorry but i dont want to talk about it in school. it doesnt feel right. but dont worry. yes it looks like im depressed because i am oh well no need to worry. well i dont know what to say. life is gay. you ever wonder how one person can change a good mood to a shitty ( Read more... )

i guess ill update since i can. lets see anything new hmmm ive been spending the past couple of weeks in my room with a couple of exceptions. i just learned i am enron is recording thier ep this weekend i cant wait till the next show. hmmm life sucks... lets see someone anyone call me and save me from rotting away from lack of human contact woa ( Read more... )