Ok, so yeah, been thinking a hell of a lot more about what I said in my last entry.
3 people have spoken to me about it, and helped me in my decision. They just said that its stupid, really bad for me, and that it'll just make me feel completely worse.
Now, I was gonna do it to make me feel better, but being told that if I feel crap when doing it, ( Read more... )

Soo lets just say that I really am back to how I was about 4 months ago [just without the tears].
I dunno why though. I thought I was trying hard to get over it, thought I actually moved on and such. I guess it didn't last any longer than a couple of weeks.
I just don't get it.
I suppose it doesn't really help me still trying to do things, in which ( Read more... )

I feel extremely lazy.
&I'm hardly like that. Only now and then I am, but mostly I'm hyper with endless amounts of energy. @_@;
Maybe cause I had a busy weekend? Everyne at work felt pretty blah too. We went out Friday night to the pub and then a club afterwards. And of course; I got drunk. =D
No supprise there, eh? It was fun though. The bouncer ( Read more... )

Ok, here's my update.
The past week, I've been thinking a hell of a lot; about the shit thats been keeping me so down for the past 4 months that I've been draggin myself to the pub everyday for a drink to soothe my frustration and shit. In a way it helped; yet it didn't. But it helped me to think, away from the computer.
And so after sooo long, so ( Read more... )

Ohh miii gaawwwddd ( Read more... )

There's something wrong with me D ( Read more... )

*looks back to the post where she was really happy*
I wana be that happy again T_T But I'm not >_In fact I kinda went bleh on someone last night. Sorry for the rawrness Jose D ( Read more... )

Ok, so I've just been laying in my bed for the past hour, partly sleeping whilst listening to my iPod.
And well, I'm not tired, but I want to sleep. I want today to end and wake up tomorrow in a better mood.

Ugh, I'm still blah about not being able to go on holiday.
I want to get away; I need to get away from here.
I can't just take a break off ( Read more... )

I'm booored D ( Read more... )

Just a minor update.
Nothing new really. Just been thinking about stuff more.
Made myself gone back to being completely confused; not knowing what I want.
I just keep getting mixed messages about stuff, making me think of one thing then having it turned away from me.
I have no idea on what to do.
I don't even know what I'm babbling on about @_@

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