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Even when the Fon Master isn't here, it's tough to sleep. I keep having to be too exhausted that sleep is my only choice. Too many thoughts, too much here in Avoria-
I know I can't change the future in Auldrant. The way the future is now, everything turns out fine. But the future ties in here. My future self is here, and Lorei. My sister... no. My daughter. Even if I personally didn't do a thing, Asch is still me. That blood that runs through her veins is still half mine. Mine and Luke's. If I stay here, stay with Ion... or, Yulia forbid, there's an Avorian woman I meet, it changes the future and Lorei won't be-
Lorei is only born if Luke's a girl and I'm... I can't. He's a child. No matter if he becomes who Luke is now, I can't. But that mean my daughter...
If I stay with the Fon Master, I could change the future and Lorei won't be born. But if I try to keep the timeline correct, it wouldn't be right. I want to stay with Ion, I want... Score, I want. But I can't change the future.
Four years... and it'd probably be Luke. Before this kills me, this is what I have to do to assure Lorei's future. Of all the things I want to change... and I can't because that is one thing I don't want changed. I don't have to be Asch here, but for her sake... I have to be.
I know I can't change the future in Auldrant. The way the future is now, everything turns out fine. But the future ties in here. My future self is here, and Lorei. My sister... no. My daughter. Even if I personally didn't do a thing, Asch is still me. That blood that runs through her veins is still half mine. Mine and Luke's. If I stay here, stay with Ion... or, Yulia forbid, there's an Avorian woman I meet, it changes the future and Lorei won't be-
Lorei is only born if Luke's a girl and I'm... I can't. He's a child. No matter if he becomes who Luke is now, I can't. But that mean my daughter...
If I stay with the Fon Master, I could change the future and Lorei won't be born. But if I try to keep the timeline correct, it wouldn't be right. I want to stay with Ion, I want... Score, I want. But I can't change the future.
Four years... and it'd probably be Luke. Before this kills me, this is what I have to do to assure Lorei's future. Of all the things I want to change... and I can't because that is one thing I don't want changed. I don't have to be Asch here, but for her sake... I have to be.