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[holyguacamole05]

In case you failed to notice, in case you failed to see, this is my heart bleeding before you, this is me down on my knees and these foolish games are tearing me apart. You'd teach me of honest things, things that were daring, things that were clean, things that knew what an honest dollar did mean. Somewhere along the line I must have gone off

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[_offtherecord_]

I guess you have to decide what you want from him and then how much you'll be able to handle. If he's your best friend, he should understand this stuff. If he's a decent guy, he won't reject you in a mean way. You are allowed to be happy and you should be happy and if he makes you happy and you think he's just going through an offtime then fight for him as much as you can without putting your dignity and sanity on the line. You owe it to yourself to at least explain to him everything you're going through. And if he can't handle it, doesn't want to handle it and is generally being an ass then screw him. You know, as you mentioned, what your expectations are. If he fails to met them when you're bleeding before him then lose him. Not that it takes it the pain away. But at least you won't have wasted time loving a guy who doesn't care about you. Missing the relationship you had is quite different from missing the one you didn't have--you should at least find out what you should be missing the most and if he feels the same way. Then maybe

[1_happy_banana]

i've been pondering this since you posted it, and i want very much to give you good advice. the problem is, i don't feel like i know enough to be anything more than vague. so here is my sound, vague advice

[holyguacamole05]

yea at times i want to get back together because i liked the person he was. but i dont want to be with the person he is. thank you for ur response and your concern. i love you. i want to hear about ur life!!

[amore_e_onesta]

I don't know why you don't call me and vent to me... rather than the cyber abyss. And as far as me hurting... I was hurt a lot more when I was with you than without you. When I was with you in SD I didn't actually have you and wasn't able to see you as much as I wanted due to work and Chris. That's what hurt. But being away from you has made me realize I will always be with you and will always have you. You will always be there to support me and so on, whether or not you're right next to me or 700 miles away. I love you with all my heart and when you think of the things you've written here just remember that I'm always here for you. Forever and ever. <333

[holyguacamole05]

i know and i am sorry for that but i really love you and miss you!