I look back at what i could say when i was 16, and i marvel at my sincerity, my trust in words. I knew i would change; i just assumed i would change for the better. Maybe it's all inevitable, the building up and breaking down. I had all my easy theories then. It's like cartoons. It's easy to run into the sky if you don't realize the ground is gone ( Read more... )

wow. and everybody i know up and writes entry after entry, all these keyhole worlds to get lost in. I feel as though i've sent spies out into the world, and here they spill their confidential minds. All these people and places and all the living they do. What were we all once? and where are we going? To think the one shares a bed for months of ( Read more... )

Woke up early for a doctor's appointment at which i was given a vaccination by a friendly but not enormously competent nurse. Then 'worked' for an hour, had two cavities filled at the dentist, (while watching a beautiful thunderstorm through the window and praying that the power didn't go out mid-fill) and spent a pleasant evening with my ( Read more... )

I think the problem here is that i don't know what i want to say ( Read more... )

I wrote an odd entry about moods, and nearly convinced myself i was insane. Heh.
there is something healing in being outside. It's two in the morning, but i'm going to go for a walk.

'I am finally seeing ( Read more... )

I feel that when one visits a country, one should should endeavor to experience not only local cuisine and customs, but also as many local diseases and illnesses as one can manage. It gives a truer spectrum of life ( Read more... )

damnation. this is the word my grandfather word curse with, on the few occasions that he cursed at all ( Read more... )

I have been sleeping on floral pillows for weeks ( Read more... )

Brazil is loud and humid. Sau Paulo, where we began, is large and somewhat like New york, but more extreme. People drive like it´s a video game. The population of sau paulo alone, excluding the area built up aroud it, is something around 11 million. you can feel the crush of human existance pushing against you everywhere in the city. All the cars ( Read more... )