this is the saddest i've been in a long time. part of me wants to be alone so that i can just let all this sadness out, but the other half needs everybody here with me; people who understand what im going through. Today is really peacefull. The sky is gray, the air is crisp, there arent any birds singing, and the river is calm. It's like the ( Read more... )

Patrick's first legal beer! haha!

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harry potter. omg! i had a very intense journey through literature yesturday. but very enjoyable ( Read more... )

i am having a wonderful day! im listening to belle and sebastian, who i will forever be in love with, and looking up yummy things to make for our picnic in the park this evening.

tomorrow we are going to go see harry potter. in a week the book comes out! in a week we will know the end! i cant deal with the suspense!

apparently i had an entire phone conversation with patrick last night at 1230 am while i was asleep. he called me before he went to bed and we apparently talked about how his clinical today was actually at a different time then he thought it was so he wouldnt see me at all. i have absolutely no recolection of this. interesting ( Read more... )

well surgury went ok. i wasnt put out completely, just given a sedetive/amnesia drug, so i wasnt coherent during the whole thing and i dont remember much. all i remember is that i cried during it and that somebody was drying my eyes. at 330 i was done and both patrick and my mom were there to see me. patrick drove me home and i immediately layed ( Read more... )

Happy Fourth of July! i think that this is my absolutely favorite holiday because its a chance to relax with friends and family, eat good food, AND have good weather to play in. And lets not forget the fireworks. i am soooooooooo excited for our party tonight ( Read more... )

im having surgery this thursday. the biopsy didnt report anything suspicious, but its still very alarming that a lymph node swells like this so they want to take it out and test the whole mass to make sure it isnt a lymphoma and to see why it is doing what it is doing. im kind of excited, kind of nervous. it just means i get to be taken care of ( Read more... )

do any of you girls (you know who you are) want to go see feist on monday? shes playing at the crystal at 9 and tickets are $20 and if we go buy them from the crystal ahead of time we only have to pay a $1 service charge ( Read more... )

camping in 3 days!!!!!!!!!!!!

we should probably start fasting now to compensate for the extreme amount of eating that is going to take place.