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Tres Iqus, swallow your pride and meet me at my penthouse.
I was fully prepared to just end it, to be truthful. It isn't his fault. I entered this knowingly and wasn't sure if I was fully serious at first.
I do love him more than anything else. I would kill anyone too close to him in order to make sure he stayed mine. Yet I wondered often that if I acted on my desire to spill the blood of most he met, would he continue to be the person I love? He isn't weak either. If it all became too much, he could easily dispose of me as I could of him.
But he's kept the ring for this long and he actually listen's to the things I say.
I wasn't expecting things like that. I feel so weak to him, now I'm beside myself. I do not want to be without him, yet at the same time I don't know what to really do about my insecurities. If I decided to stop thinking about, all that could come from it is violence. If I do decide to handle it, it will also become nothing but violence. I had been doing ok for myself lately, but now... now the urges come so frequently and so fast. One of these days I won't be able to just turn a blind eye to it.
This sensation is what it's like to drown when you've given up going to shore.
I was fully prepared to just end it, to be truthful. It isn't his fault. I entered this knowingly and wasn't sure if I was fully serious at first.
I do love him more than anything else. I would kill anyone too close to him in order to make sure he stayed mine. Yet I wondered often that if I acted on my desire to spill the blood of most he met, would he continue to be the person I love? He isn't weak either. If it all became too much, he could easily dispose of me as I could of him.
But he's kept the ring for this long and he actually listen's to the things I say.
I wasn't expecting things like that. I feel so weak to him, now I'm beside myself. I do not want to be without him, yet at the same time I don't know what to really do about my insecurities. If I decided to stop thinking about, all that could come from it is violence. If I do decide to handle it, it will also become nothing but violence. I had been doing ok for myself lately, but now... now the urges come so frequently and so fast. One of these days I won't be able to just turn a blind eye to it.
This sensation is what it's like to drown when you've given up going to shore.