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honeebug

Something I wrote...

Jul 26, 2004 12:50

I wrote this a while back when I was confronted with feelings I was having for someone else. I realized this weekend exactly how much truth was in it.

I can't spend time with you because you like me too much. I'm afraid I will lead you on by giving you my attention. I'm afraid you'll make too many assumptions if I kiss you. I'm afraid I'll start ( Read more... )

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hearts_frozen July 26 2004, 11:22:03 UTC

Oh, wow, C. That's really sad but beautiful at the same time. I can totally feel where you're coming from with that. I was there myself not too long ago.

<3

honeebug July 26 2004, 11:25:36 UTC

Thank you. I am having serious issues with my husband. He has told me that he's addicted to Oxycontin and has stolen more money than I care to count. I can realistically say he has spent $15,000 in the past three months. Now everything I've felt in the past is making so much sense. I knew, somewhere, somehow, I knew that he was lying to me. I just couldn't figure it out. Now I feel like an idiot.

hearts_frozen July 26 2004, 11:59:20 UTC

OH. MY. GOD. $15K?!?! I don't MAKE $5K a month, let alone spend it on drugs!

Claudia, I wish there was something I could say to you to make this better. I don't know what to say. I'm here if you wanna talk, always. Chelle has my phone numbers. I would talk to John seriously about getting some help first of all.

Don't feel like an idiot. There's no way you could have known. <3

honeebug July 26 2004, 12:36:18 UTC

Well, he was taking money out of his account from the life insurance too. It wasn't all mine, but he has stolen over $2500 this month from me alone. $1100 of it was in one day (last Thursday).

He's going to Twelve Oaks tomorrow. Above and beyond everything else he is my children's father and they deserve a dad. It's not their fault.

Thank you so much. I was so embarressed to say anything to anyone, but the more I've talked the more I've realized that people don't judge me because of his actions.

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Welcome firenemesis July 26 2004, 13:58:09 UTC

to the losers support group. I am your tour guide and #1 loser - Michelle. We welcome you with open arms and hope when we all graduate, we will no longer be losers.

Re: Welcome hearts_frozen July 26 2004, 14:48:44 UTC

YOU'RE NOT A LOSER.

Re: Welcome honeebug July 26 2004, 16:21:37 UTC

That's right. None of us are losers. We're all just in or recently out of some really pissy circumstances. We were with losers, chose losers, even loved losers, but we're not losers!

Re: Welcome firenemesis July 27 2004, 09:39:12 UTC

See my reply to C's post!

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