I'm kind of boggled.

[honeymagnolia]

I just tried to study Spanish for two hours and actually studied for perhaps twenty minutes. The rest of the time I spent talking to my Spanish partner. This guy is freaking cool, people. I'm not sure I've ever been more curious about and intrigued and wowed by someone else than they are by me (and I know that's self-centered, but it's also the

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[forkingpaths]

Are you okay with everything hon? The guy sounds pretty amazing, but at the same time this does sound pretty self-absorbed, judgmental and self-centered - is that what you're trying to convey or the place you imagine yourself going? This is just how it sounds! are you impressed with him or with the things he's done (they might sound like the same thing, but they can be different).

Anyway, I'm just worried, not trying to make this a slap in the face! Let me know if I'm being a bitch, 'cause I'm not trying to!

Much love and hugs,
Rach (who will love you if you think she can be bitchy! mostly because she knows she can be a bitch)

[honeymagnolia]

Um, I don't ever think you're a bitch, and I adore you always, but I think either you missed the point on this one or I wrote it all wrong. (I think I'll make the rest of this its own post.)

(after journal post)

[honeymagnolia]

I'm kind of changing my mind, actually. I'm sure you meant well, but that was pretty harsh, and it doesn't feel good.

Simply to speak the words, and not for the sake of any allegiance...

[iamnight]

While I think Rache read it a different way than I did, I definitely understand what she's saying. What I want to know, when I read this post, is - do you know how to recognize the beauty in the people around you? Not just superficially, in a word here and there, but genuinely and deeply?

Every time I hear you talk about how wonderful you are, I smile, but also, very honestly, feel further and further distant from you. Like when I'm talking, every time I'm talking, I feel your attention is already turned toward the next anecdote of your awesomeness you want to convey. Do you hear me anymore? As we discussed before, we've grown different ways, and we'll unlikely be in each others' daily lives again, but I would like to think that we will always have some kind of bond. Some kind of mutual willingness to listen and speak even when it's difficult.

I don't know that what you mean is: I am more wonderful than all other people I have ever met. But when it gets down to conversation, and when it gets down to being expressed like in this

Re: Simply to speak the words, and not for the sake of any allegiance...

[honeymagnolia]

Hey Deb