i spend too much time trying to figure out why i do what i do, rather than enjoying what i do no matter the reason. however, lately, i've been living more and more in the moment and it feels really good. it feels good not to worry so much about why i just did what i just did. it feels really good to not hesitate in doing almost everything and think ( Read more... )

why does nothing seem to make me happy anymore? i mean yes i am happy at times, but i can never seem to sustain the feeling. somehow there is always something that counteracts my happiness. what's changed in me? maybe im dealing with too much too quickly, which is a strong possibillity. or maybe im not dealing with things that i really should be ( Read more... )

i'm happier than i have been in a long time. i'm tryign to leave all of the stress and what not behind me and just go with the flow. that's my resolution, to relax more and take it easier on myself. i tend to bring myslef down when im happy, and recently i've been doing it again, but i'm really tryign to stop because it's just a rediculous thing to ( Read more... )

okay, some times i am just like an idiot. i do stupid idiotic things that will in the end screw me over some way or another ( Read more... )

i've been having fun these past two weeks ( Read more... )

i forgot how exhilarating it is to take big risks.

i really need to take a step back sometimes and realize whats happening before i open my mouth, because the things i say astonish even myself.

i feel like i just walked into a wall.
i knew it was there, but i kept walking anyway.

i think about WAY too many things at the same time.
i think thats why i suck at making decisions, because im usually thinking about something other than the topic at hand.

i need a fresh start.