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Oct 03, 2004 15:02

Ok so the following are emails I have sent and have recieved from my ex Haley. Shes currently taking a semester in Ireland. We broke up over a year ago and havn't gotten along very well since but we have tried to be friends. There have been alot of lies told in that time. She didn't call me or try to get ahold of me at all before she left for ( Read more... )

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anonymous October 4 2004, 22:33:54 UTC

Did you mention me to prove a point, or were you calling me all those names again? I just want to know if you hate me or not...I think she should have taken time to see you before she left. I told you that before, though. Just let me know what I was mentioned for...I just want to know if you still think of me in those terms. Your family is still in my prayers.

anonymous December 26 2004, 07:16:20 UTC

Okay. I'm gonna post this in sections, as I can't say all I want to say in just one entry ( ... )

anonymous December 26 2004, 07:19:39 UTC

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anonymous December 26 2004, 07:21:16 UTC

As for Heather. Why couldn't she and I be best friends if we wanted? You seem to make it sound like a bad thing everytime we even talk. Since I've been in Ireland, I have only recieved positive e-mails from Heather. She told me how happy she is and about how you told her that her marriage was a mistake. That was kinda mean. I think you should be happy that out of the 3 of us, one of us has found happiness. I am 100% happy for Heather. Maybe jealous too, but not bitter jealous.....wistful jealous that someday I will find someone to love who loves me back. Because bottom line.....that's all I want from life.....to be cherished. Not doted apon or spoiled or used....just lvoed. Heather has only been nice to me - Why wouldn't I be her friend ( ... )

anonymous December 26 2004, 07:21:41 UTC

You know...I RAN AWAY to IRELAND to get away from this negativity because it fucking TEARS ME APART. I hate it. And while I was here, I was beginning to feel happy again......free from the burden of hatred, hostility and negativity. And now, just weeks away from me coming home, I don't want to come home anymore because I am sitting in IRELAND crying and typing with people in the computer lab staring at me like I have issues, which I do. I feel boggled down by negativity, resentment, hatred, hostility....whatever the correct word for it is....and I'm an ocean away! I feel like I'll be squashed by it if I come home. I don't know how to fuck to escape it! All I wanted to do was be your goddamn friend and I do feel like that's not gonna happen because I still feel like you don't want to be my friend. Why do I feel this way? I think that the e-mails I just got from you are why I feel like you hate me or something. I dunno what to do about it. I have apologized a thousand times for everything you don't like about me....for ( ... )