i've made up my mind ( Read more... )

well that's it ( Read more... )

it wasn't just an off night ( Read more... )

so this sucks.
i feel distant from everyone.
a best friend.
a close fella.
an ex(?)
a parent.
other random people.

i feel like the only people that i can relate to right now...
and the only people who can understand me
and want to be close to me
are people i've never even met.

and i'm sick and tired of pretending that everything is okay.

why does it always have to be about you ( Read more... )

tearful voice mails are so not my thing.

i have about two shreds of dignity left.

and so, i'm going to bed.

i'm hiding beneath my blankets and sheets
and it seems that i'm finally free.
i'm killing the ghost of you and i'm close to awakening me.

frick.
frick.
frick.
Today I'm sinkin' lower than the sun does on a Sunday
{All the Miles}
how can such a good day suddenly turn into such a bad day?
And all the water in you is putting out the fire in me
{All the Miles}
why can't you just be a little more outspoken?
You nod and smile like a lying stranger when I ask if you're doing alright
{Losin ( Read more... )

when your best friend says don't listen to cat power.
don't.

instead
make yourself a whole list of female jazz singers who will depress/confuse you more than life itself.

tonight we have:

Cat Power
i will miss your heart so tender
Jann Arden
hide me inside your heart and let me wash away
Judy Garland
now that our love dreams have ended, what'll ( Read more... )

When you first told me you were going to Utah for a month, I thought something was up. There is no way that anyone in their right mind who isn't a Mormon would voluntarily go to Utah. It just isn't normal. But I never thought it was for rehab. I am so seething mad at you that I could scream. You promised me... We talked about it and you ( Read more... )

No words can say how amazing prom was ( Read more... )