yea well i had an interesting weekend. for thanksgiving, i went to my grammy's house and then to my cousin's house. i gaind my accent back so it sounds weird.. that night i met some kid named chris, cute but i have some one else in mind. umm... we drank capt. morgans... its good when mixed with sprite, it kinda tastes like vanila. last night i went ( Read more... )

yea well its saterday and my whole family is comming over and i really dont want to listen to them. " oh yea i cant afford to get you a card, and i wont say happy birthday to you either. i cant stand living here, i cant wait until i am 18 so i can leave and never come back... i always have to clean your fucking house, i always have to do what you ( Read more... )

i am off to the mall to hang out with eric, and mark, and such people... god only knows what i will encounter tonight..

i am so happy... i get to leave my nieghborhood if i clean my room... and then i can do what ever i feel like....i am soooo happy....

uhg.. i sit here and wonder why... i dont know whats wrong with me. how do i screw up so much.. i fuck myself over, time and time again. way to much shit running through my head. i have no place to go, no where i can escape, to just walk away and forget everything. i dont know where i belong. i'm lost inside, been that way for a long time without ( Read more... )

i went to my grandmother's house today, and i had fun i guess.. my cousin got her drivers liscence so i went driving with her... wow. my grandmother is getting really old... and she just had sergery on her eyes so she doesnt have to wear glasses anymore... i almost started to cry when i saw her... dont know how much longer she's gunna be here for, ( Read more... )

i dont even know why i am here, or why i even bother to try to exist. nothing goes right, i just lost my best friend. the whole time i was blind, not realizing what went on around me. if i could i would take it all back. hah. nobody said you had to have friends to live your life, but, i dont think i can live mine with out them. i thought about what ( Read more... )

i have to spend today at my graammy's house but i will be back at like ten tonight if any ne wants to call love you all...

i fucking hate living here. i hate every one of them.. i could care less what happens to them. i hope they overdose on their drugs, and i hope he gets hit by a car... i cant stand it any more. i clean the fucking house every day, and still they manage to make it into a fucking shit whole every day. i dont know whats so fucking hard about picking up ( Read more... )

yea people are so predictable... i mean how complicated things can get, but shit when you know how people are going to react to things, you know you know somebody well. i know how you probably reacted to it but i'm not all that quite sure... i must have screwed up somehow to make this all happen, i mean i'm not that bright... yea thats definately ( Read more... )