I think I win the award for sucking at relationships. I always manage to screw things up somehow. My mom said it best, "Jessica why do you make it so hard for people to get close to you?" Honestly, I just don't trust people anymore. Almost everyone I ever have let get close to me or trusted has broken my heart or let me down. I guess I just decided ( Read more... )

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I absoultely hate this. I thought I knew what pain was. I was wrong. Pain isn't something you feel when you know something's completely hopeless. It's what you feel when you wake up everyday just to try and convince yourself there is hope, only to be gut-wrenchingly reminded that there isn't. And for some reason, beyond you, you continue on in the ( Read more... )

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Let the accusations fly, I don't care. If this is what I have to do to be happy. I have to do it. If you don't like it, tough stuff. I'm so sick and tired of feeling like I'm not good enough. I won't do this anymore.

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My eyes are almost swollen shut from crying today. It was the first thing I did when I woke up this morning and will most likely be the last thing I do before going to sleep tonight. My parents both know what I'm dealing with now. As well as my pastor and his wife. All in one day mind you. To my surprise, both of my parents are dealing with this ( Read more... )

Well today started off pretty shitty. They of course screwed my schedule up, I hope they're going to fix it :(. Anyways I was already upset in first period(which was driver's ed for me today...) and of course parker had to go and show another one of those movies. Two little girls got killed and their parents talked about it and one of the little ( Read more... )

Schedule Change. I dropped out of Spanish because I miss choir and I don't want to put myself in a bad situation by taking all academic classes in the same year ( Read more... )