Dropping truth bombs of the unfun honest variety
So. Depression.
Yeah.
Sometimes there's just a voice screaming in my head. Just screaming really loud.
When I try to relax by breathing deeply I end up crying, so it's hard to practice my anti-anxiety strategies. I avoid family phone calls because talking to people seems impossible. Sometimes replying to emails or texts feels like my body turns to lead and I just can't.
Making dinner seems impossible. I've been living on granola bars and hot pockets.
I had two good weeks at the end of December. Other than that I've been feeling down since...probably early November. Maybe October. I made new appts with therapist/psychologist, to try and sort out my brain chemically and logically. I'm trying to get this under control but at this point I spend the vast majority of my not-at-work time curled in a tiny ball in the corner of my bed.
Stress. Money. Anxiety. Health. Fatigue. Fear. Avoidance.
So.
Depression.
Yeah.
Yeah.
Sometimes there's just a voice screaming in my head. Just screaming really loud.
When I try to relax by breathing deeply I end up crying, so it's hard to practice my anti-anxiety strategies. I avoid family phone calls because talking to people seems impossible. Sometimes replying to emails or texts feels like my body turns to lead and I just can't.
Making dinner seems impossible. I've been living on granola bars and hot pockets.
I had two good weeks at the end of December. Other than that I've been feeling down since...probably early November. Maybe October. I made new appts with therapist/psychologist, to try and sort out my brain chemically and logically. I'm trying to get this under control but at this point I spend the vast majority of my not-at-work time curled in a tiny ball in the corner of my bed.
Stress. Money. Anxiety. Health. Fatigue. Fear. Avoidance.
So.
Depression.
Yeah.