Don't hold yourself like that ( Read more... )

i wish we could see our future. i hate worrying about my future and how certain things are going to turn out....i know waiting is all you can do and to let things just take its natural course but it stressed me out at times.

on a happier note. i love IV summertime!

I GOT A 48/50 on my Psych 101 final boo yah

is reality that difficult for some people to deal with? why do they pretend to be someone or something that they are not? isn't what is real more tangible?

i love how i update this thing when im stressed out or cracked out due to school and finals. so im on running on 1 hr of sleep right now and its wonderful. i took my final at 9 am this morning. not too hard. then i have the last one on friday. it should be easy enough. not too stressed. i just cant sleep i have reached that point where sleep is no ( Read more... )

sweet so im in modesto sitting here on the laptop. i just finished my zona seca paper. i have no desire to party here. i think cinco de mayo in sb was enough. i cheated in flip cup. wow i was drunk. sorry kelcie. im a bad flip cup team member. i puked in mels bathroom and in cait and lis's trash can. sorry girls. damn jose. i thought you loved me ( Read more... )

this growing up is freaking me out. just as i thought i had my life pretty much in order. i start to find out and realize things that makes me freaked out. what if i dont get into my majors? what do i really want to do for a career? is this thing to go to FIDM stupid? my roommate told me to jsut drop out of college now and go to there but honestly ( Read more... )

i want to go to FIDM or Parsons after i graduate from UCSB and major in merchandise marketing. then i will go on to be a fashion buyer. i will go to fabulous fashion shows and work with fabulous clothign all day. i want to get that internship with volcom. i like how they fuse sports, fashion, art, and music all together. dammit thats what i want ( Read more... )

i suck at my water polo class. k i havent played since junior year of hs. at least i can swim. my arm just hurts. i feel like i need to pop it back in to place. anyways. spring quarter is already sweet. i love my classes. no class on friday! i love boys in my classes. i love boys on campus. i love boys in isla vista. i met a hot boy in my psych ( Read more... )

uhm it's late and i am at home in modesto. i didnt tell anyone i was coming home (well except my ex. he came over tonight. awkward. i havent seen him since i left for college. i definitely realized that im glad i left modesto though.) i got home on thursday night and im leaving monday morning so all this time has been spent with my familia. i am ( Read more... )