Fic: Perhaps, Perhaps, Perhaps (SPN)

[hopeful_fiction]

Author: angstslashhope
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: John/Dean/Sam
Spoilers: none; set between 1.20 Dead Man's Blood and 1.21 Salvation (now with magical stretchy-time!)

Notes: giftie for beanside as part of the spn-holidays ficathon. beanside provided the very specific prompt of 'Wincest (any kind)' *g*
Thank you to ggreenapple for the incredibly prompt and useful beta, and to derryderrydown for general supportiveness

Comments

[reynard_pyjama]

Hee! I likes it. The detail. The palpable atmosphere. The discomfort and intensity of sensation.

My brain is too mushy for more specific comments than that, sorry.

[reynard_pyjama]

P.S. I like the Johncest. It certainly makes me uncomfotable, and doesn't give me the pure pleasure that Dean/Sam does, but I think its one of the more interesting directions in the fandom. Where there's discomfort, there's the agitation of things shifting around in one's head, the grinding tectonic plates of personhood. A welcome thing in my book.

At the end of the story, if Dean and Sam had've not left room in the bed, just ousted him once they were done with him, that would have been perfect for me ;)

[angstslashhope]

Thank you for the feedback! (though, I am still facepalming a bit because homg, not the best story ever.)

I'm glad you get a kick out of the Johncest. Alas, not a lot of it around actual does get the tectonic plates grinding, in my experience.

[tittakv]

I like the tension here - the inevitableness and the wrongness, the shame and the shamelessness. It's not easy or pretty, but it's the Winchesters.

[angstslashhope]

Winchesters indeed. I am fond of them. Thank you :D

[ggreenapple]

I like it. :)

I wrote this one, too! Only it kinda turned into some sort of magical-realist, pseudo-beat, symbolism-ahoy word-fest, and so I disowned it. (There were shining, snapping lines of come everywhere! Like a porn version of A River Runs Through It!)

I admire how you can always keep things so grounded, even when writing the uncommon, unexpected, or improbable scenarios.

Also: hot.

[ggreenapple]

I just wanted to mention, too, that I liked the shifting of roles and authorities. First season was very much about Dean and Sam finding their places -- Sam, accepting that he is a Winchester, that he belongs with his family; and Dean, going through a kind of postponed coming-of-age, choosing -- perhaps for the very first time -- his brother over his father, and accepting himself as a capable man, not just a son and soldier.

And this mirrors that nicely -- the way that John comes back finding things have changed; or at least, finally seeing his sons as men, not as children. And I love the way they push him -- at first subtly, and finally, physicallyAnd, in the end, they all sleep in the same bed. That's wonderful. Everyone with their place. John hasn't ceased to be a father, and Dean and Sam haven't ceased to be brothers or sons, but they've achieved a greater level of equality. Nice, nice

[angstslashhope]

But I kinda tend to think the authors intentions and the reader's perception have equal value. I.. think? you might agree with me on that one?Yes, I totally agree with you on that one :D It's one of the reasons I love fanfiction so much! Once you release a text into the world, be it an 'official' one (like a TV show) or an 'unofficial' one (like fanfiction of a TV show), I reckon it takes on a life of its own and is no longer under the creator's control. I mean sure, they can edit or remove it (which is harder with TV than it is with fanfic), but in terms of how people read it, what they take from it... is something completely out of the creator's control. And I love that :D

[amothea]

this was pretty hot. :)

[angstslashhope]

Yay :D Thank you! I'm glad you liked!

[nixwilliams]

YYYYYAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYY!

Movement in the corner of John’s eye as he checks for traffic; Dean’s hand on Sam’s thigh. Third time. John’s gaze flickers from it up to Dean’s face; Dean is staring right back at him, expression unreadable.

and

John turns to face him and there’s nothing mysterious or even unfamiliar about Sammy’s expression at all, high flush and open mouth, soft amusement and an edge of defiance when he meets John’s eyes.

are my favourite moments of this fic. but i like it ALL! tense negotiation and recognition and envy and desire... and they're not under a curse! whee! i also like that you pay attention to what they're doing physically, and don't have any of those moments where you think, wait, what? how did they get into that position/get their clothes off/get to the bed? and body parts end up in odd/incidental places (noses in armpits), and it's ALL GOOD.

ok, stop distracting me. you know, i had a dream with JDM in it the other day. oh yes. he was in a debating team with lionel luthor. daddies of the cw,

[angstslashhope]

ARMPITS FOR THE WIN! I am verreh glad you liked this. And yay for not being confused!! (Could this mean I'm geting a teeny-tiny hold on this writing porn thing?)

Thank you! :D

PS. Yay dreams :D I had a john/dean/sam porny one the other night. \o/

[nixwilliams]

armpits! you should write gratuitous armpit porn. like: sam and dean get caught, possibly nekkid, in a totally believable situation very small space, and dean is really horny and the only place he can manage enough friction to get off is in sam's armpit. possibly while sam is passed out. and when they get out of the believable situation small space, sam's all "what is this in my armpit hair, dean?" and dean's like, "nuthin". and dean develops an armpit fixation and keeps trying to pick up women who have hairy underarms.

he doesn't think about how hairy dad's armpits were, either.

o.o ... what? i'll be in the corner writing my thesis, and doing my best to lower the average standard of feedback comments on your fic.

[angstslashhope]

I say again, ARMPITS FTW!

there needs to be more armpit nuzzling in this fandom. And just general rubbing-against-pheremones that isn't so much about frottage as ... um, puppies?

I DON'T KNOW.