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WELL i G0T AN iP0D, A NEW FLAT iR0N, S0ME JEWELRY, AL0T 0F STUFF FR0M BATH&B0DY W0RKS, A 300$ GiFT CARD&&iM STiLL WAiTiNG 0N MY BR0THER'S GiFT. i G0T MY DAD S0ME H0LLiSTER C0L0GNE(WHiCH HE L0VED)&&i G0T MY SiSTER S0ME SHiT FR0M THE B0DY SH0P&&MY BR0THER WANTS ME T0 PiCK 0UT A SWEATER F0R HiM, S0 iM G0iNG T0 START L00KiNG F0R THAT. i DiDNT KN0W WHAT THE HELL T0 GET HiM. i G0T KATiE S0ME H0LLiSTER PERFUME, A WATCH, FUZZY HANDCUFFS(A J0KE),&A RUBBERBAND THAT SAYS FRiENDS F0REVER. i G0T KELC A PURSE, S0ME JEWELRY, &&A HAiR CLiP. &&i G0T THE SAME THiNG F0R ASHLEY. i G0T RENE A WH00Pi CUSHi0N KEYCHAiN. L0L i WANTED T0 GET DANNY A GAG GiFT, BUT HE W0NT LET ME BUY HiM ANYTHiNG. i WAS G0iNG T0 GET HiM A RAZ0R. i STiLL MiGHT. L0L i THiNK iTS FUNNY THAT iT TAKES HiM F0REVER T0 GR0W FACiAL HAiR. L0L
LAST NiGHT WE WENT T0 MY SiSTER'S B0YFRiEND SiSTER'S&&HAD DiNNER&&TALKED&&ALL THAT. THEY ARE AWES0ME PPL..THEY TRULY ARE. HER B0YFRiEND'S M0M WAS TELLiNG ME SHE WAS S0RRY AB0UT MY M0M&&i KN0W SHE WAS MAD AT HERSELF F0R BRiNGiNG iT UP. iT WAS REALLY WEiRD...i GUESS iTS BECAUSE iTS MY FiRST H0LiDAY SiNCE SHE HAS PASSED..THiNGS JUST ARENT THE SAME. &&MY SiSTER'S B0YFRiEND TH0UGHT i WAS HER LAST NiGHT WHEN WE WERE SiTTiNG D0WN EATiNG&&HE PUT HiS ARMS AR0UND ME&&KiSSED ME 0N THE CHEEK. iT WAS S0 FUNNY. L0L WE WERE SiTTiNG NEXT T0 EACH 0THER&&HE 0NLY SAW US FR0M BEHiND...i GUESS HE G0T C0NFUSED. L0L
THEN WE WENT 0VER T0 MY SiSTERS F0R A WHiLE. i L0VEEEE HER B0YFRiENDS H0USE. i L0VE HiS CHESS SET BUT i H0PE i W0ULD SiNCE HE SPENT A GRAND 0N iT. YEH iTS iNSANE. HE HAS A L0T 0F FUCKiNG M0NEY. L0L &&PPL W0NDER WHY MY SiSTER iS WiTH HiM. PLUS HE iS 0NE 0F THE SWEETEST GUYS&&HE TREATS HER S0 G00D. L0L iM HAPPY F0R HER.
CAME BACK H0ME&&DANNY&&CHiNK CAME 0VER. WE ALL HUNG 0UT F0R A WHiLE&&THEN CHiNK LEFT. &&DANNY DiDNT LEAVE TiL 4 WHEN MY DAD W0KE UP. LMA0 KATiE, i G0TTA TELL Y0U THE ST0RY! 0MG! iTS FUNNiER THAN THE 0NE FR0M THE 0THER NiGHT. N0 M0RE MESSED UP SHiRTS BUT A SLiGHTLY MESSED UP SWEATER&&MY DAD WALKiNG iN 0N US AS DANNY WAS....WELL YEH. L0L iLL TELL Y0U LATER. i D0NT WANT T0 PUT 0UR BUSiNESS UP HERE.
ME&&DANNY HAD A TALK LAST NiGHT AB0UT S0ME THiNGS THAT HAVE BEEN B0THERiNG ME BUT i STiLL D0NT FEEL ANY BETTER&&iM PiSSED 0FF AT MYSELF BC HE iS TRYiNG S0 HARD T0 REASSURE ME THAT EVERYTHiNG iS 0KAY.
WELL i T0LD MY DAD i WANTED T0 GET BACK 0N BiRTH C0NTR0L&&HE WAS SAYiNG T0 MAKE AN APP0iNTMENT F0R THiS WEEK 0R W/E. &&THEN HE WAS TELLiNG ME i HAVE T0 PREPARE MYSELF F0R THE W0RST BC DANNY iS LEAViNG F0R 6 M0NTHS&&THEY ARE G0iNG T0 BE 0THER GiRLS AT B00T CAMP&&AiT TRAiNiNG&&i HAVE T0 BE PREPARED F0R THAT PH0NE CALL 0R LETTER SAYiNG THAT iTS TiME WE G0 0UR SEPARATE WAYS.
&&iM JUST S0 PARAN0iD iMMA L0SE HiM&&HE SAiD N0T T0 W0RRY BC HE W0NT BE ABLE T0 FiND ANY0NE AS G00D AS ME&&THAT HE iSNT L00KiNG F0R ANY0NE ELSE. BUT THE LAST TiME S0ME0NE T0LD ME THAT, HE APPARENTLY DiD//WAS. &&HE SAiD iT WAS G0iNG T0 BE HARD T0 LEAVE ME WHEN HE G0ES T0 B00T CAMP BUT iM T0TALLY 0KAY WiTH THE WH0LE THiNG.
THiS iS S0METHiNG HE HAS ALWAYS WANTED&&iM S0 PR0UD 0F HiM. i REALLY TRULY AM. HE iS D0iNG S0METHiNG REALLY RESPECTABLE WiTH HiS LiFE&&HE iS F0LL0WiNG HiS DREAM. WH0 AM i T0 STAND iN THE WAY 0F THAT? &&i T0LD HiM HE NEEDS T0 GET USED T0 N0T SEEiNG ME EVERYDAY BC HE MAKES TiME T0 SEE ME ALM0ST EVERYDAY. EVEN iF THAT MEANS WAiTiNG iN THE MALL PARKiNG L0T F0R 2 H0URS WHiLE i GET 0FF W0RK. iM JUST S0 HAPPY&&S0 SCARED. iVE BEEN HURT S0 MANY TiMES&&iM REALLY FALLiNG F0R HiM. i D0NT L0VE HiM BUT iM FALLiNG F0R HiM.
iM GETTiNG ATTACHED&&iM SCARED iTS G0iNG T0 END UP LiKE iT ALWAYS D0ES. WiTH ME HURTiNG&&CRYiNG&&i KN0W HE iS W0RRiED THAT iM G0iNG T0 HURT HiM T00 BC HES BEEN iN A L0T 0F BAD RELATi0NSHiPS T00 BUT i HAVE NEVER HURT A GUY THAT iVE DATED. &&i CARE AB0UT HiM T0 MUCH T0 EVER HURT HiM. iDK. i NEED T0 ST0P THiNKiNG AB0UT iT S0 MUCH 0R iM G0iNG T0 MESS iT UP.