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It's been a while since I have updated on here and I've had a lot on my mind. I haven't really wanted to write about it because I guess if I wrote my thoughts down, I'd actually have to accept what I was thinking. That probably doesn't make sense but that's how I feel.
Tomorrow is my birthday and I thought it was going to be the best birthday ever. I have a great boyfriend and wonderful friends and everything but I haven't been looking forward to it since my mom died. It's going to be weird not having her wake me up with her phone call and her telling me how much she loved me. I don't think my birthdays will ever be the same again.
Then my best friend and I aren't on speaking terms right now and to be frank, I don't know when we will again...if we ever start talking again. She thinks I betrayed her because she confided in me and I told someone what she said but deep down, I think I did the right thing. I didn't like being in the position I was in because on one hand, I was happy for my best friend because she was happy but then again, I felt bad for Christian and I thought he had the right to know what was going on. I didn't do it to hurt her but I did it to prevent him being even more hurt. Maybe I did the wrong thing, but my heart is telling me I did right.
People make mistakes and that's okay. I don't judge people for their mistakes because Lord knows, I have made my share of fuck-ups. I just thought that she was wrong and I didn't want to see him get hurt. I care about them both and I just did what I thought was right. If she can't accept that, then IDK what to do. I'm not going to apologize because I don't think I did anything wrong.
So the only person I'm spending my birthday with is Danny. I really don't like doing anything for my birthday so it doesn't really matter to me. Kelsey is going to be on her retreat, Rene has a tourney during the day...so w/e. lol Danny wants to take me to see Annapolis, then go out to eat,&&then he wants me to spend the night with him.
My work gave me Saturday, Sunday, and Monday off. Tamara walked out last night so I took her call in for Sunday(3-7) but I doubt I'll be working. lol Next Saturday is going to be a beast. I work 12-close. So probably 1030 at the earliest.
Besides all the drama, everything is great.