not all bad!? To learn after an election was stolen 4 years ago..to wait patiently for people to finally wake up to the horror of the Bush Regime..only to learn the "people" were nothing but a load of fundamentalist bigotted evangelical moralists who don't care that our country was taken wrongfully to war.. that tens of thousands have died as a ( Read more... )

i figured something out today. i have more sad memories then i do happy ones. everytime someones asked me to look back on something... the first thing thats come to mind has always been something to bring a tear to my eyes.. and a frown on my face... but what i realized is.. one million sad thoughts or memories... will never replace one single ( Read more... )

i finally got my computer back... feels kinda weird though cuz i havent sat at this dest for 3 months.. my brother took forever fixing it and i had gotten used to being on the computer in the living room.. using it when my dad needed it... it was his but he didnt mind lol ( Read more... )

so last night was my sister wedding. what a day ( Read more... )

i cant believe how much my life sucks right now ( Read more... )

fuck. sometimes i really cant stand my mom. grr.

school sucks.. work sucks.. guys suck.. i suck.

life is shit.

i just want to be left alone.

im tired. today was a really long day. i worked from 10-4 and then was supposed to hang out with steph the rest of the day.. but i had to go with jose to get a phone from him but ended up wasting like 3 hours waiting and he never showed.. he called and said his car broke down on the freeway.. the battery died or some crap like that... and his dad ( Read more... )

im trying so hard to do good.. to do the right thing.. about school and work.. and being what my parents want.. seems like the more i try.. the less it happens.. like.. i dont want it to happen. i was trying so fucking hard to do good in school this semester.. wanting to pass my classes with good grades not just pass em because i have to.. im ( Read more... )

im sad.
sad as i can possibly be
sad about the world around me
sad that theres no you and me.

its funny how stupid u feel when u start to feel a certain way about something u made fun of someone else over... i used to think that people who contemplated suicide were so dumb.. i thought.. how could u hate your life so much that u just wouldnt want to live anymore? last night i was laying in bed.. crying... thinking that... i wish something ( Read more... )