how can i go to love of your life to piece of shit weirdo satay away from me you ugly fuck?daanhimselfJuly 27 2005, 00:55:56 UTC
i love you, and i want to hate you. you make it look so easy...im destroying everything you ever gave me, so call me if you want it back, but then again you dont want to talk to me so i guess its getting dumped like how you dumped me. i know your friends support you but i think there happy to see me go i think thats why your so strong about all this, i also think your getting something else out of this deal but hey who am i to say, i trust you diana, but you hurt me...i just want to kill myself i almost drove my car into a light pole just wanting to end this pain and hoping maybe that would make you care about me enough to SHOW IT, but then again i also think about doing stupid shit like cutting up my arms with my razor blades..i just am so so so hurt and your not here for me " You dont want to see me as you said " so what the fuck. as you can tell im unstable more than usual...and im sure your just gonna lable me off as crazy because thats how you look at me
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ps. you seemed ok when i saw you at work, it seemed like nothing was wrong and you seemed happy when ive been miserable all day and crying all afternoon, infact im crying right now just wanting you to be with me, i dont know why we cant be together theres gotta be more to it...im dying here and you just dont care....i fucking cant life anymore fuckasj.'kdf;oL"
im sorry about what i posted above, im calm now and talked to ashley, she made me realize alot of things shes such a good friend to you she really is your lucky be sure to thank her...but yeah im just still crying like a baby but i love you so much and i understand, i know i was wrong and i never ment to make you feel guilty, your the best gf a guy could ever ask for, youve been nothing but loyal sweet and caring since day 1, and i have been nothing but a jealious, insecure, asshole since day 1. im not asking for you back because i dont deserve you, im just saying sorry and incase i never told you enough...I LOVE YOU!!!<3333 your were always loyal and i had a hard time seeing that, but now i can honestly say i fully do, i love you im so sorry and i dont want you to come back to me because i dont deserve you i want you to live life and try new things be in other relationships but i want you to know that im here for you i love you and will always be waiting for you. that doesnt mean im expecting to be with you again because i dont. i
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as your grandmother said..." you 2 love eachother so much why are you guys apart from eachother? " shes so sweet, and i understand what she was trying to say...this is so stupid, im giving up my heart and my whole world...im giving up you and though i understand why and i am sorry i still honestly think theres gotta be some other reason behind all this, i never thought you would abandon me and your love for me so quickly but then again i probly had it comming im sorry for everything but your my last reason for life or atleast a happy one...its just hard to sit here at home and me miserable and want to end this life while your out and about with who ever your out with...do you even care? do you even think of me...nevermind just ignore me...ill leave you alone, im sorry for wasting more of your time...bye.
i cant believe you lied to me about chris, your such a fucking slut kiss all your chances with me good bye...atleast you made me realize that i really lost nothing, becasue thats what you are nothing but lying slut. enjoy it bitch.
sorry i posted that while i was very upset, but as you already know i forgive you, and even though you just hung up on me and called me a dick for apologizing for something i didnt have too. you snapped on me on the phone and made me feel like shit but i still forgive you, but you just ruined your chances of having me as anything, im continuing to move on but i did really truly love you...i begin to wonder if you really loved me...
once again i am sorry for saying hurtfull things, wether or not i had a right they should not of been said please forgive me. have a nice life diana, despite what you have done to me and how you treat me i wish you the best from the bottom of my heart.
i left you, i dont need nor want and more "chances". and i didnt leave you for kris. i left you because i was UNHAPPY with you. i will always love you.
well thats fine if you dont want chances because i dont care, but then agian you theres no arguing with you i should already know this, but hey its all over between us and if you still cant be honest about your interest in another guy right after you break up with me then thats your problem, i know i was honest to you everytime, and i had problems but i atleast admitted them, you never did, you lied, denied, and never tried to work it out unless i broke up with you thats it...but hey i guess your doing us both a favor i just hope your happy without me you deserve despite everythign you really do. i dont want your understanding anymore, i just made it through the hardest time of my life without your care. and i did fine, and i feel great, im dont fighting with you diana, im done trying to make you tell the truth...you'll have to learn on your own...im sorry for every ive done to you, im sorry for making you so unhappy...enjoy your life, and the lessons you'll learn then maybe you'll look back and understand what i was talking about...i
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once again i am sorry for saying hurtfull things, wether or not i had a right they should not of been said please forgive me. have a nice life diana, despite what you have done to me and how you treat me i wish you the best from the bottom of my heart.
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