masquerade, paper faces on parade ( Read more... )

i thought of something funny that happened yesterday at church. at least, i find it funny in light or recent events. i made these fudge brownies but i used 3/4ths chocolate chips and 1/4 butterscotch chips so they're unbelievable (although i cant eat them cause im gonna puke if i continue too). so i took them to church and gave them to sean and ( Read more... )

how do you pick up the shattered pieces of your life and move on? i never knew it would be this hard. its funny, but if leland, tim and i were characters from the wizard of oz, leland would be the tin man, tim would be the scare crow, and i would be, yes, you guessed it, the cowardly lion ( Read more... )

i havent to much to say. im feeling drained though. hablah. school cant end soon enough. im doing well in everything except math. if only i could raise my math grade id be alright. my motto, aim low. ill be most happy with a C in math. come on, just a C man. and ummm yeah. i really dont have anything to say. clearly, my life is boring. now i miss ( Read more... )

" father said a man is the sum of his misfortunes. one day you'd think misfortune would get tired, but then time is your misfortune father said."

time is my misfortune as is life. im clearly not suited to the latter of the two.

dubliners is an excellent book. horray for rereading books we like!

im tired of trying. and so i give up. i havent the patience and i guess i just dont give a shit. im tired. i needs my sleep. and sobriety is overrated. really, it is.

i keep fucking everything up as my life continues its downhill slide. i havent even got skin left on my hands. fuck me. im an idiot.

and to the person whose life i keep messing up and keep making hate me more... i think nin said it best:

i will let you down,
i will make you hurt

im sorry.

i havent much to say. i dont like school very much. so i cant wait for this semester to be over. i think im a quarter of the way through it. ill be done with math... for forever! yes! and english... YES! i like english, just not my teacher. in other news.... i boughts myself an ipod! and i loves my ipod, i loves it soooo much! hehehehehehehehe... ( Read more... )

i guess i might as well post it on here so i dont have to tell people individually anymore. natasha and i are no longer together. we're still entertaining ideas of being together in the future but right now, the long distance and other certain problems that i have have caused us to drift apart. so, in the hopes that we'll start dating again ( Read more... )

ehhh spring semester has started. boooo. all of my classes seem pretty cool. my teachers are all male so it should be interesting for me. i dont why. *shrug* now im just talking aimlessly. not that different from usual though. these crossword puzzles are hard. damn l.a. times. apparently i have a 3.24 at smc. but because that C in math doesnt ( Read more... )