alright, so im off to colorado in about 3 hours... YIPEE!!! philip and i got into a huge fight tonight. and frankly im sick of it. i gotta talk to him about cutting it permanently because that aint gonna happen anymore. if he doesnt change quick im outta here. that really was not cool. i dont want to be treated that way. if he's gonna be liek that ( Read more... )

i cant sleep. i feel really antsy. i dont know why either... wait... yea i do. never mind.

wow, this weekend was so awesome. i need to take a nap but i have assloads of homework so that wont be happening. HOLY CRAP. so much fun. man i think im gonna party in colorado too. talkin to some of the people from around there and anxious to hook it up. YES! SKIING AND PARTYING. colorado is going to be so much fun.

ive made up my mind to tell him. but i dont know how. i think i am going to tell him the truth about somethings and see where that goes. and then tell him what the shrink said. and then tell him how i feel. hopefully he sticks around for the whole thing. and doesnt get pissed and drive off in a fury ( Read more... )

i just got back from my counsilor session with the new counsilor. she's nice, i could see her degrees, she took alot of classes and i trust her. she was really nice. the last guy seemed to have this script he ran off of and a time limit preset that pissed me off. with her, she let the conversation go and gave good advice, she didnt seem to stage ( Read more... )

just got back from the movies with jessica. we saw bridget jones- edge of reason. such a cute movie. awesome, hilarious! i am such a huge bridget jones fan now and its all jessica's fault. i cut school today cause i realized this is a two day week and that is pointless, but i will be at school tomorrow to pick up the missed work so i can work over ( Read more... )

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gosh, i hate being confused. it sux. and i know i do it to myself just to put drama in my life. if anything goes perfect i gotta screw it up cause im used to conflict. the shrink i saw last year said its a self-destructive depression. he said that even tho i like to be happy i tend to destroy the things that make me happy on purpose. he said that ( Read more... )

so honors band was as it always is, long, tiring, and usually unsatisfying. i got to know some cool people tho. heather and i talked and we both apologized for being bitches to each other, i really dont like having conflict with people but i am not nice when i do. she's been goin through crap with her family as much as i have. her mom is still the ( Read more... )

today was definately fun. i really enjoyed just being at state because i already knew how we would do. i mean come on, this is the state level competition... actually did better than i thought we would. crying over it is just stupid. no offense. so marching season is basically over, we only have to perform our show, one more time and that is for ( Read more... )