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well, shocker, I actually posted twice in a week. I need a break from homework for a moment. I realized that I don't really have any friends, and my one good friend is up in Logan, and will be leaving on a mission to Honnolulu Hawaii in little over a month. So I am in a sad state. I'm so busy I don't have time to be social, but even if I did I don't have anybody to be social with. I haven't tried to push my friends away, they just seem to have forgotten about me... I haven't had a really good close friend for nearly 3 years, about the time I graduated from High School. Wow, depressing thought. Maybe there's something wrong with me that I have a hard time finding friends. Maybe I have a social disorder of some kind. i have friends at school, but I don't do anything with them outside of school. I have people who I enjoy thier company, but I haven't done a "friends night out" for several years, at least that's what it seems like. I need girls who are my friends too, guys as friends are just too complicating, not that I don't enjoy having them, but there are things they don't get. I'm stressed, tired, worn out, feel like I've been working 2 full time jobs (which I pretty much have been for the last month...) and I'm still out of money. My car has decided to start burning oil, I've had to fill up my oil tank 1-3 times a week, and it smells like burning oil, but not the "dripped on" and then burned smell, it smells like it's actually just burning the oil, which means the rings in my engine are starting to fail, which means my cars days are numbered. *sigh* great sadness, I love my car. I really do. I'm gonna miss my car, who my fiancee and I decided should be named Diva. No reason, the name just seems to fit. I'm so stressed it's causing headaches and massive amounts of back pain, and I've gotten 2 seperate colds in last 3 weeks! uggh!!