it hasnt been a very good day. today i found out some really bad news. i guess i saw it comin but not so soon. at 12 today my grandpa joe died. i feel like an ass cause he has been in the hospital for a while now and i never went to see him. its not that i dont care about him its that i cant stand to see people at there worst. he was my last ( Read more... )

i dont know what to do anymore i never really know waht to say how to say it. it just seemed so easy before. it was easy to forget maybe cause there was no love in my heart before. my life seems empty i miss the warmth of her body at night. but what do i do that warmth hurt me more then anything has ever hurt me before. its just i have changed i ( Read more... )

i had a good weekend this week. on saturday a went to look for more puppies and i saw this one that was awesome and i wanted it so bad. i playied with it and then i decided to buy my little friend ( Read more... )

so i was this close to buying a puppy today. i was so happy. it was a beagle and it was awesome. i took my mom to look at it and she liked it. i was all ready to charge it when the guy said it was sick it had phenomia and he didnt think it should be around my dog. so upseting. so now that i know i can have a dog the search continues. its not that ( Read more... )

am i an asshole. or did i just stop caring. what the fuck is wrong with me an why do i feel this way right now. i want something so bad i cant have and if i had it how long would it last ( Read more... )

i worked as a shot boy for the first time on thursday. me and ben were goin to do it together but he didnt want to last minute. i figured it would be me that wouldnt want to do it. but it wasnt as bad as i thought it would be. sure i was thouched in uncomfortable places but that was expected ( Read more... )

so me and ben are goin to be shot boys tonight. its sad what people will do for money isnt it...

so in sad news my turtle died. sadest day of my life. i dont know what the point of life is anymore. we swim around just like little turtles day in and day out just to see the same things. what is the point. now i need to bury my beloved turtle in the backyard no his favorite rock and morn his death. maybe ill say a few things well i got to go im ( Read more... )

so i bought the movie cocktails today the one with tom cruise yup tom cruise and i put it in and my dvd player doesnt work. fuck dvd and there shitty players. yup ther is my graduation gift great. my parents cant even get me a good one its a peice of shit if i could i would throw it out my window into traffic...yup i cant even watch tom cruise ( Read more... )

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