Feeling stuck again.

Trapped.

I hate this feeling, but I can’t seem to get away from it.
Am I really that hard to satisfy?

I want to get away.

Purge.

Get rid of my belonging and take off. But fear has always held me back.

Fear of being alone, fear of new things.

I could make a huge list of why I am staying in San Diego.

Matt. Debt. The ( Read more... )

This fucking hurt, but I LOVE IT!

It has begun to scab, and I can walk >almost< like a normal person.

My second tattoo ♥


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We had sushi last night.

It's fun to go on dates. ♥

I continue to find that I really want to go back to school.

Maybe it’s that I’ve never really completed anything big.

I never finished my photography portfolio. I never had a job long enough to earn a promotion since I got to be an assistant manager at HDOS (except I left during my Asst. Manager training.)
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*phew*

Went to the Doc's for my follow up today. Had an ultra sound to look for the lump.

We found it.

Benign Cyst.
Relief

Only the curious have something to find.

"The only woman a man ever truly loves is his mother"

Really? pssh.

If only he were here more often. I love being around him.

And he takes such good care of me.

Having someone hold you while you are in pain is one of the best feelings ever.

Almost as good as when that same person tells you its time for your next dose of vicodin.

♥

Paranoia.

Anxiety.

Stress.

Suspense.

Mistrust.

Worry.

Upset.

Fear.

Skydiving? [[check]]

What sane person wouldn't
intentionally jump out
of an aircraft,
mid-flight,
at 10,000 ft?

You're just jealous.