im so tired right now. i just wanna go back to sleep. each day seems to be getting worse and worse for me. now that i have been avoiding talking to wayne about anything that i feel is gunna start a fight between us it seems like we really have nuthin to say to each other. im tired of him saying that im always in a bad mood when im not really. its ( Read more... )

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I'm kinda sad today. Last night was weird. I got kinda drunk and Wayne says that I was acting all weird torwards him. I didn't feel like that until I went to get into bed. I got into bed and then I fell asleep and then I woke up and I was crying- like whiny crying. I keep having this horrible dream like feeling that he is going to leave me. I just ( Read more... )

I'm so emotional and confused today. Losing this baby has really made me extremely depressed. So depressed that I am even afraid to talk to Wayne about it. Lately when I'm around him I just don't even know what to say to him. Usually I don't feel like that when I am around him- but lately I have been thinking about what I say to him before I say it ( Read more... )

Well I guess that I have been avoiding updating my journal because I just didn't want to talk about whats been going on. Sorry I havn't emailed you back Megan.. I will tomorrow morning when I get back to work ( Read more... )

justin has been so driving me crazy. he threw the absolute worst temper tantrum last night and he is still carrying it on today. he is saying that me and wayne dont like him and alot of bullshit like that. mike is being such an ass. he is saying all this crazy stuff to wayne like if he cant be with me then he is going to make it so that no one can ( Read more... )

im really pissy right now.. lotsa things happend tonight and i dont know how to deal with them. well we went to wal-mart tonight and guess who we saw?? jeff. yup. not cool. i came out of the bathroom and he was standing there trying to talk to me. then i went down and told wayne that i wanted to leave so when we were in the checkout wayne went ( Read more... )

im kinda cranky right now and i dont really know why. i went shopping this morning at old navy so i should be happy- i got 4 new pairs of pants. i like them lots. well i guess im kinda sad now cuz today i wore this jacket today that i have no worn in a very long time and when i went into the pockets i found this card- it was a card that lee-ann ( Read more... )

I'm so emotional today and I don't really know what is wrong with me. I should be in a good mood and I am just not. Me and Wayne have not really been fighting like usual- but this morning I was being a total jerk for like no reason when we were having sex. I just started thinking about all the crap again like Lee-Ann and stuff.. then when we were ( Read more... )

I'm gunna fill out this survey that Megan had... I have nuthin betta to do right now I guess. It's too cold to go out anywhere ( Read more... )