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So far, this journal sucks. Tomorrow I'll write a real entry and post some pictures, but for now, a
I AM: Sam. Just fooling :D, I'm Jill.
I WANT: to not care what other people think.
I HAVE: a semi-wasted life.
I WISH: I cared that I havnt dont anything worth doing.
I HATE: myself a lot.
I MISS: Lisha Kill and friends.
I FEAR: death, somewhat, but college, and love, and being rejected
I HEAR: Eddieeee<3333
I SEARCH: for something to occupy my time.
I WONDER: If I'll ever shut up or stop talking weirdly. If you'd like an example just come and watch this video I made.
I REGRET: nothing, or try not to regret anything.
I LOVE: my friends.
I ACHE: in my eyes.
I ALWAYS: mess up situations
I AM NOT: The best at anything. Most of the time I'm one of the best, or average, but I'd like to be THE BEST at something. Because I suck and I'm selfish. Duh.
I DANCE: Everywhere and in Ocean City and with my friends from dance.
I SING: Opera with Melissa and Kristina.
I CRY: more than I'd like to
I WRITE: like an amateur
I WIN: never. I come in 2nd a lot.
I LOSE: I dont lose completely, I come in the middle somewhere.
I CONFUSE: Myself and those who I am talking to.
I NEED: to be normal.
[YES OR NO]
You keep a diary: I tried, then I wrote down my observations on recent events, and got so weird I scared myself. So I spent an hour tearing it all into 1mm by 1mm pieces and then burned it ritualistically in the fireplace.
You have a secret journal: See above. I want to keep one, but I'm scared of myself, and my weirdness.
You set your watch a few minutes ahead: I dont wear them. Why should my life be dictated so much?
You bite your fingernails: Yes.
You believe in love: Yes. But I doubt certain aspects of it.
[DO YOU]
Take a shower everyday: Unless I dont.
Have a(any) crush(es): Um, no.
Think you know you've been in love: No.
Want to get married: Yes.
Have any tattoos/where?: No, and I won't get any because I hate how they look on old people.
Piercings/where?: ears
Get motion sickness: No.
Think you're a health freak: Kind Of.
Get along with your parents: My mom. I'm getting along better with my dad lately, but it probably will end.
[FAVORITE]
NUMBER: 8
COLOR: dark red, like.. ruby red.
DAY: sunday and monday
MONTH: July
SONG: You Are My Sunshine, and Gray Skied Morning. It must be my weird, unknown obsession with weather.
FOOD: water.
SEASON: I love them all.
SPORT: Soccer, Skiing, Swimming, Dancing
DRINK: water or iced tea or green tea
VEGGIE: corn
FRUIT: pineapple, nectarines, grapes, i love it all.
FAST FOOD: chile and frostys
[IN THE LAST 24 HOURS, HAVE YOU]
CRIED? no almost
HELPED SOMEONE? yes
BOUGHT SOMETHING? no, but i stole 100 golf balls
GOTTEN SICK? no
GONE TO THE MOVIES? nope did wednesday
GONE OUT FOR DINNER? yes tonight,well, yesterday now..
SAID "I LOVE YOU"? yes to my mom
WRITTEN A REAL LETTER? no
TALKED TO AN EX? no
MISSED AN EX? no
WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL? um, duh.
TALKED TO SOMEONE YOU CRUSH ON? I dont crush on anyone currently.
MISSED SOMEONE? yes
HUGGED SOMEONE? my mom and becky
FOUGHT WITH YOUR PARENTS? actually, no. Fake kung fu fighting though.
FOUGHT WITH A FRIEND? no
[WOULD YOU EVER]
Eat a bug? Yes
bungee jump? Yes
Kill someone? Maybe, it depends of the situation.
Have sex with someone you don't love? No
Kiss someone of the same sex? Sure i guess so.
Parachute from a plane? yeah
Walk on hot coals? if i joined one of those freaky religions where you have to
Go out with someone for their looks? Um, no
For their reputation? No
Be a vegetarian? I couldnt. Animals eat people so what does it matter?
wear plaid with stripes? Right now, I'm wearing, Striped socks, plaid pants, tye dye shirt, polka dot underwear and leopard bra. You think I care?
IM a stranger? sure
Sing karaoke? YES. I tried to get into a bar once to do it, but then they id'd me and i got kicked out.
Shoplift? i have, and i will again probably.
Run a red light? duh.
Dye your hair blue? Yep.
Be on Survivor? Depends how much money. But i would prolly quit.
Wear makeup in public? DUH.
NOT wear makeup in public? sure
Make someone cry? Yep.
Kick a baby? WTF ITS LIKE IN KUNG POW>
Date someone more than ten years older than you? Yeah. Not until I'm older though.
stay up all through the night? Yes.
That sucked.
Goodnight.