hey.....it has been so long since i last wrote and so much has happened. only i remember more of the bad than the good. actually i can only remember about two good things since the last time i posted an entry. everything in my world is spinning and coming down and i'm just wondering when it's all gonna stop. 
my fiancee is still in jail. yeah, he ( Read more... )

This weekend was crazy. I didn't end up going to Taylor at all because my paycheck didn't come in till like 3 Saturday afternoon and I really didn't want to go down there for one night. Anywho-Friday night me and my cousins drank and smoked. It was cool. All day Friday i was feigning for some weed. I had a lot of stress and all I wanted to do was ( Read more... )

You know what sucks? When you can't stand your family. And I can't stand mine. I hate my family (except for my cousins Chris and Jennifer and my brother and sisters).  My nana is a total bitch. All she does is bitch about this and that and nothing is ever right. I can't win for losing in this fucking family. Nothing I do can make her happy and she ( Read more... )

 Ok-so I was going to go back to Taylor today, but yesterday jennifer told me that her and Chris and Kristy were going to be drinking and smoking tonight and it was gonna be fun and i was like cool but i'm still going. then Chris gets in the car and he's like shit man, stay and drink, i'll take you to taylor saturday and i'm like ok. easy as that. ( Read more... )

ok, so today turned out to be good. i went and got high with my friend. we only smoked one blunt but god! i was high. this weed we got is so aswesome. it's this bright lime green color and it has red hairs and it didn't have many seeds but the few we did find was like this tannish color. whatever the fuck kind it is it is good. i went to work ( Read more... )

 geez, ok, so i love jr. i really do. he means so much to me and i wanted us to be together forever. but now that he is in jail and he has fucked up two times already, i'm not so sure. plus there is this really really cute guy who is so sweet that i like and we talk all the time and flirt a little bit, i'm just not sure if i want to break it off ( Read more... )

ok, so yesterday wasn't so bad. after i got off work i went home and took a bath and then i went out with sarah. we had fun. we were gonna go get high but then our dealer called and told us that he had some new green in and it was fire so we called matt to tell him and he insisted that he loan us five dollars so we could go get a blunt. we ended up ( Read more... )

hmmm.....today just seems so blah. i'm tired and not in the best of mood. I don't really have a reason for being cranky but i just am. i wish i could've stayed in the bed today, but noooo, i had to get up at 6:45 just to go to work. And it's not that I hate my job either, it's actually the opposite. I like my job, but today I just wanted to stay in ( Read more... )