what do you do when your heart wants two different things? would i be losing my best friend and two years of my life or will i be gaining an opportunity and a chance to never say "what if"? all i know is i've been unhappy and unfair to the both of us. we both deserve something more and something better and i don't know if we can get to that place. ( Read more... )

aaaaaand now i have to figure out a way to afford my car insurance suddenly and for no good reason.

i hate this place!

man times have been really tough lately. i don't think i've ever felt this heartbroken. i can't wait to one day just go out on my own and start a life that i really want to live. start a family truly full of love and acceptance and understanding. at the end of the day, what makes or breaks you is love...love for yourself, love for others, and love ( Read more... )

even if i wanted to go into IO psychology in graduate school...Oakland University doesn't even offer an intro into IO psych. how am i going to get into an IO program without any background in IO? damn good question. looks like i may have to take a course at wayne or something in the summer to correct that problem. god damn you OU...damn you ( Read more... )

sooo...flight of the concords is coming to ann arbor may 10th and i really really want to go. what's stopping me? good question ( Read more... )

i feel like being a bit reflective right now ( Read more... )

doctor's: today at 5. and for the first time i'm not freaking out. i just know there's going to be nothing...a whole lotta nothing. i really wonder what i've been tested for, and what's been ruled out so far. i think i might like to know. i'm always afraid of becoming a patient who ends up on those medical mystery or miss diagnosis shows where they ( Read more... )

I'M PLANNING A TRIP TO IRELAND!! i really really really hope it happens b/c i'm just way too excited. we get to see castles, and the blarney stone, and cliffs of moher, and connemara and dublin...and it's still not enough! but ralph promised we can visit more than once, so maybe i'll get to see the whole thing in at least a lifetime. it's going to ( Read more... )

and now we play the waiting game again. i can't help but get frustrated and down about visits to the doctor's office. i don't know why it's so much to ask for an answer, but i guess it's just not in the cards for a little while. i start to doubt that i have a problem at all, and then i wake up and my hand is so swollen i can't make a complete fist ( Read more... )

uh, yeah. this new year has sucked. my dad has been in the hospital, my brother has been in the hospital, n i almost had to go to the hospital. apparently i'm allergic to the medication that is suppose to be my cure and diagnosis. i couldn't breathe and i almost passed out at work. i knew i shouldn't have gotten my hopes up. plus my insurance was ( Read more... )