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[hotrodkristi]

It's 1:15 AM and he left at 11:30 to run to store 24 for cupcakes...it's a 20 minute walk there and 20 back. I can't do this anymore. I love him. I know I do but I think it's to the point where I love him too much to sit back and watch this happen. I'm sick to my stomach, shaking, crying...this is not the person I fell in love with. He would never

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[anonymous]

what are you doing with yourself? (besides the obvious wasting your time)
do you plan on making amends with anyone? or do you think we all owe you something?

[hotrodkristi]

in all honesty...yes, i do plan on making ammends but if you knew anything about aa you would know that it's done in steps. 1,2 and 3 are to be done over and over in the first year....i only have 7 months on the 15th.

who do you think you are to question me without leaving a name? how do i begin to make ammends with an anonymous person?

OH YEAH...no...apologizing is NOT a part of sobriety. i will admit to all of my wrong doings and ask you for forgiveness but "i'm sorry" isn't part of it. those words mean nothing to me or to YOU anymore if i have hurt you while i was active in my addiction.

DO NOT come here and act all high and mighty with me when you clearly have no clue as to what you're talking about.

i'm the one that just spent 3 weeks in detox and six months in rehab...not you.

i obviously cannot apologize to someone who wants to keep kicking me while i'm down.

anything else, darling?

hmm

[anonymous]

isn't part of getting sober apologizing to those you've hurt?

Re: hmm

[hotrodkristi]

no it isn't...read the big book if you really want to understand.

i didn't get it until i read it...three times.