I'm having a shitty day. thanks for asking. i don't know why erally but i've been feeling kinda depressed today. "through god we shall do valiantly" thanks jamie. i guess i just don't get how during the week of the lesson on love i can still feel unloved. it just seems so....i dunno....oxymoronic? the point is that i could really use a hug. a nice ( Read more... )

I'm sitting in the library waiting for it to be 8 so that i can go run my books by my room and get the van so that i can go to the flagpole. that's right kids. courtney is driving a van to aroma's. lol. don't be too scared. last night i had people over in my room so that we could watch funny face after the play. if you haven't seen it you have to. ( Read more... )

in my last entry i stated something about andrew's away message rom last weekend. it has come to my attention that that whole thing was a misunderstanding on my behalf. i have already apologized to him for jumping to such a conclusion but i thought i ought to set the record straight for anyone else who might have read it. sorry again, andrew.

i'm feeling very depressed today. i don't want to get out of bed and i don't want to do anything. i'm not sure all the reasons i feel this way but i do. i think partly it has to do with crashing my car and not knowing what to do, partly with almost killing my best friend in the crash with my little brother's skateboard, partly to do with what ( Read more... )

i will now know within the next 48 hours what i'm supposed to do now. seems like a long time but we are at prin and time flies like nothing. i am so excited though regardless. it going to work out after all for me to be a theathre education major and i no longer have to take remedial algebra. now i am in child lit which is work intensive but will ( Read more... )

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ok, i got just a little sleep last nhight which more than i've gotten in a good three weeks. and today i actually ate. i still feel this pain in my stomach everytime i think about things but i'm starting to kind of live although if a decision takes much longer i might go insane. as fo right now i am just happy to know that my friends love me so ( Read more... )

why is it so fucking hard to say i'm sorry? why is it so impossible to admit i was wrong? i am sick of feeling this pain in my stomach from stress. i want things to go back to the way that they were. i don't hink he knows that this is this hard for me too. i know what i did was wrong but it's hard to communicate that. it's hard to communicate at ( Read more... )

i have been up since 6:30 eve though my alarm didn't go off until 8. i have to work in the library again today. the bad thing about being in there all day is that all the jobs are more or less easy so i have all day to just think about things. normally that wouldn't be bad but right now i already feel like crying and i would really rather be ( Read more... )

it's hard to be back as much as i love it here. things are just a little strange still. i find myself needing to find the courage to do what i know that i need to do. nuff said there. otherwise, it's good to be back. i am in the library right now and working both today and tomorrow so stuff going along. i can't wait for everyone else to get back ( Read more... )