this weekend has been extremely eventful...not. my dad made a point to be an asshole and yell at me for everything. so that made it totally enjoyable. idc he can yell at me all he wants, im gone in a year. i wont have to put up w/ his shit soon enough. anyways, the only good thing that happened...i spent my night(well 2 hours of it) w/ matt. im ( Read more... )

Overall today has been an awsome day! yay! 1st good thing: i died the underneith of my hair black!!! 2nd good thing: band camp was actually enjoyable today...yes i know that's amazing...3rd good thing: i got to spend most of my afternoon w/ 4 of my good friends which was something i havent done for a long time. it was sooooo fun! 4th good thing: ( Read more... )

For some reason I get the feeling that band is going to be awsome this year! Final fantasy is so cool ^_^ makes me happy. All the guard is like "Sarah! You have to do our hair! You have to make us look like anime cause you're the expert!!!!::attacks::" lol is fun but I'm excited because Paulette said that we all can do fun stuff w/ our hair and she ( Read more... )

Of late it's harder just to go outside, to leave this deadspace with hatred so alive. Writhing with sickness, thrown into banality, I decay. Killed by the weakness, but forced to return.     TURN IT OFF.      I watch the stars as they fall from the sky. I held a fallen star and it wept for me, dying. I feel the fallen stars encircle me now, as they ( Read more... )

so when i woke up this morning i remembered my dream from last night (which is a good thing) but i was thinking about it and i was like "awww..i really dont have a hot pink fishnet shirt! i want one! tear!" yah...so now im sad...i wish i had a hot pink fishnet shirt...would be awsome ( Read more... )

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i found the link to this on jamie's lj! yay! thank you dear!


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i'm in such a random mood...
def. still in some fantasy world...strange thing is,
it seems like a reality for some reason...
im odd =/ at least im finally home!

reading through all my old notes...so many memories...so many emotions...i hate myself...idk i mean i should be happy yet im not...its summer im in LA im havin fun but im so fucking depressed right now. idk just keep thinking all this crazy shit and idk my mind is stupid...time to die..i wish...gawd... -_-

okei so i finally got my totally awsome emo glasses! woot! never realized how blind i was heh. fun stuff... ::sigh:: last day of school...how wonderful! well tomorrow should be the best day ever consisting of a 14 hour long car ride of nothing but nonstop video games! oh yah! Star Ocean! cant wait to play it..finally! hum...well louisiana's gonna ( Read more... )