SO things are getting better again. Mommy is happy again. We are getting there. It's still gonna take some time but we'll get through it ( Read more... )

Just as things start to look up, it gets even worse.

Pray for me and my mom.

Hopefully today will be at least as good as yesterday if not better. That would be nice.

I'm tired of hurting. I'm tired of crying. I'm tired of blaming myself for this. Well I'm done blaming myself. Now I'm blaming you. You did this to me anyway. I hope you're happy. Cause I'm certainly not. Lately it hurts to get out of bed. I just don't want to. My depression has hit really hard recently. I have no one to help me. No one to listen ( Read more... )

So after 2 weeks of not talking, Brian IMed me the other day. It made me smile. I guess that means he doesn't hate me like I thought he did. I still think about him a lot. I mean I try to not think about us and what happened and what we planned in our life but it's hard. I wonder if he thinks about me. I wonder if he still has feelings for me ( Read more... )

So I found out why we have Shi. She is sick. :-/ my baby girl. She is going on 12 and still going strong. God I hope she is ok. She goes to the vet on Monday. I love her so much.

I had to most amazing week ever. Besides.... 1 thing.

I have Shiloh for the weekend!!!!

Steven was really pathetic today.

And I think my boobs grew.

That is all.

:-D

So my 4th was alright. Jackie and I BBQed and it was funny as hell that was a first for the both of us but it turned out good. Then we went down to Centennial for fireworks. The show they do is really good. So Jackie, Nikki and I went down to the park and just kinda chilled and hung out played some cards, had a lot of fun. Then it started to get ( Read more... )

So I had a really good weekend. I was surprised but I really did. It was awesome. But nothing could have beat this morning. HeHe. ( ):-D WoW uhhh hehe thats about all I am gonna say about that. But wow this couldn't have been any better.

Sooo I have never seen so much piss and shit in my life.