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[hotxcarl]

brittany and i went to irvine today. she wanted to spend her birthday money. we called cam and him and his friend brenden were in luguna but he drove to the spectrum to hang out. then we went to cam's work at a coffee shop in san juan and he got us some soy white choclate mochas. so nice. then we went to his house and hung out. haha we listened to

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[girlonhold]

if you don't mind me asking...
who died?

[hotxcarl]

when i was in 11th grade in 2002, one of my close friends committed suicide during lunch on our school's football field by shooting himself in the heart. an hour earlier he had said "goodbye" to me...i turned my back on him after he got heavily into drugs like most of our friends and it's one of my biggest regrets in life.

[girlonhold]

oh my.
i'm sorry that happened.
i wish i could make you feel better.
but i'm not good at that.

[blowing__kisses]

i know how you feel.. not exactly but pretty close. it's so so soo hard to deal with.

[i_love_cali]

i'm sorry about that
i totally understand how you feel about crying infront of people. it's always been one of those things that i won't let myself do. I get angry at myself if I do cry in public, which i've only done once when I was on the phone with one of my friends.
sounds lame, but i was so angry at myself.

[endthisbleeding]

leave everything to me, including TJ.

[savage_spooner]

oh my god i think i saw you yesterday at the spectrum w. some other kids. haha

[hotxcarl]

yeah i was there with my sister and our friends cam and brenden! why didn't you say hi?! haha

[savage_spooner]

oh hey i didnt finish reading what you wrote. im sorry you had to experience a loss. death is something nobody can understand or prepare for. i know how you feel, trust me. i know its cliche but you should live life and treat the people you love most like you are never going to see them again.