Want to want to
The "real world" often seems like a game that I am losing because I refuse to play. There are things I should want, things that should motivate me, that just... don't. This lack of motivation may come from fear, and I accept that, but some of it, at least, comes from cognitive dissonance. The world doesn't seem fair to me. It all seems so contrived
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That being said,
You have a gift. It really hits me when you write, from the inside, how you feel going through these things. You always resonate with things I feel, thins I go through or have gone through.
Someday I hope you fictionalize it a bit, then publish.. sorta like Richard Bach did with Illusions and Jonathan Livingston Seagull. So what if its darker? So very many people would
*get* that they were not alone.... I wish I'd met you earlier, myself.
Maybe its that I'm going to my social worker/therapist today and I'm taking your words and feelings with me like a shield.
I will keep being on your side.
love you
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I think one of the basic unacknowledged problems in our society is that we have this common myth about what everyone wants, or should want -- and it's not what people actually do want.
Instead of owning a car and learning to drive, I want to live in a place where I don't have to worry about it.
I like driving sometimes, but I think it would be awesome to live where everything necessary is within a short walking distance. That was one of the things I liked about some neighborhoods in New York when I went there on a school trip -- a lot of people can go out their front door and around the corner and there's a grocery store and a great little cafe.
Instead of having a job and a steady income, I want to be taken care of.This. Even people who have more than enough for everything are supposed to want to work and be fulfilled through that. I would happily never "work" in that way again if I won the lottery, but I'd find ways to keep busy. Granted, more gaming is among them ( ... )
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