The Wonderful Thing About Tiggers....
humm...*suspicious eyes* the college seems to let me onto here....i don't trust it though.... i just thought i'd try it as a way of looking like i'm doing something, as im just using the drop in as desks basically and don't really need the compoohder at all.
Media courseworks going alrite like...done one and a bit pages...*how many pages miss Grace*. tis just so.....humphmaking.
i got back into Film as a candidate candidate, as opposed to an external one. YAY, we got to cut and stick stuff. :D
i miss Kevin al-fucking-ready, its ridiculous, i guess its cos of the amazingness of the weekend, it felt really perfect, and last night felt okay too, i was stupidly tired and kept falling asleep throughout Hero, which is so beautiful i bet i missed alot of stuff. i dont know since i've been doing Film and Media, half way through a film my brain is hurting from analysing it...a skill/curse i cant seem to turn off which is tres annoying.
Kevin's going to be in West Side Story, which is exciting and sexual all at the same time, he looks so hot on stage. i cant wait to see the play in full. Rhiannon is so lush i can't wait to see her performance. i like how she can be so unbothered about holding notes eternally hehe.
It's been 5 and a bit months with Kevin, i think i love him more than i've ever loved anybody, i miss him like i'd miss and arm. and although its scary to say, i cant imagine my future without him in it. He saved me.
i feel like i get to see two different sides of Kevin, like theres two of him, ouside of privacy, or comfortable situations, hes really strong and (even if he says fakely) confident, and it really inspires me to be happy and to be myself. when we're alone, he can be the most amazingly sweet person i've ever known, and it makes me happy to know that i'm probably one of very few who get to see that side of him. Its just some of the little things he does, like tigering me :), and the presents from new york, the keyring with us in it. :) just reminds me how much he cares. I'm happy that we can disagree occasionally and still talk to eachother. it feels safe. and nice :). I love him like its thge first time i've loved anything or anyone, with full trust and passion and all that other love crap :). i love him, i love him. He gave me the chance to fly. :)
WICKED!!! i get to see it soon, i can't actually wait, i'm going to Orgasm over everythig when i get there, they can expect standing ovations for every song. its going to ROCK!!!.
i feel a little guilty that i crash at Kevs every Wednesday, i bet his mother gets annoyed sometimes, i know she said cut down on wednesdays but on the other hand we've ben cutting down on weekends, which is FAR harder.
the longest i've ever gone without him was 10 days. i dont think i could last anymore than that. i literally had to drink myself to sleep.
im a little annoyed at Steven, he told me he had been making fun of me to Bex and that lot. now dont get me wrong im nt bothered about them lot making fun of me, however they want to spend there time is up to them. but Steven was meant to be my best friend...yeah cos thats what best friends do isn't it make fun of you...it pisses me off roayally.
im so lush, i just got TWO chocolate bars out of the vending machine for the price of one!...although i do feel guilty that someone is going to pay 70p for nothing....maybe i'll return one?....nah.
i've got so much work to do this weekend im just going to focus har don it and get it done, ill get drafts done by the end i know, but i only have two weeks left for Film and til; the end of April for media i think, although i think its probably longer as its after the holidays... wait its march now...hum that mean s when i go to wicked itll be 6 months and on my birthday itll be 7 and a half months, which is my longest relationship ever!...i well just went off on a tangent.
anyhoo i have english to go abd be lush in now so "abe-et"
xxx